oinkrules(:

2010-02-08T01:24:00.002+08:00

heartwrenching
heart aches real bad
tears flow uncontrollably
confusion all over the place

what is going on?

DEPRESSING DAY

2008-09-16T03:22:00.002+08:00

today is totally a depressing day

have been really sad over my spoilt red samsung phone since its my fav amongst all the phones i had
and tonight i did a really stupid thing not thinkin for a second there and formatted my memory card
causing me to add a loss of hundreds of songs to the loss of hundreds of numbers since i didnt save any contacts in my sim card
PLUS the fact that mummy interuptted my show tonight
and plus the moment of truth when i juz clicked on my results

sociology: A
malay: B+
psychology: B
anatomy: B
mobility: B
OTTP 1A: B
physiology: C

i knew i did badly for physio
but i juz wished i could have done better for anat to get an A
and im sad i didnt get my A for psych paper. why?! i thought psych wasnt bad
these 3 is enough to make me depressed.
if psych and anat was better.my gpa would have at least hit a 3
but nw its only 2.8 far far away from my expectations
i should stop playin durin sem time and be a full time mugger
yes thats wad lalee have to and will do in sem 2
pls do it lalee

tml shall be the one and only day for mourning and cryin with my sad korean dramas
and yes lalee u have to stop thinkin about it
u have to

nights world

freedom!

2008-08-21T22:57:00.002+08:00

ok finally freedom is here
psych paper was not bad
physio was like crap and anat was about mayb 20% better
totally not expecting anythin for physio and its gonna pull down my GPA to the max
anat well i spotted wrongly for trunk and didnt bother bout biomechanics so hmm my A is def. not in the bag, cross my fingers for the best i guess
i really need to work harder!

holidays are here but i dun really have much plans for nw
except that i know i need to go find all my frens that i have neglected these few months
but they have all embarked on their uni lives.
its my turn to listen to the interesting back to sch tales ;-)
gg on a japan study tour on 3rd oct so yep lookin forward to that!
haha my student role for hols
gotta try and finish up my driving as well!
plus do the things i was supposed to have done the last long hols i had after As like my photos!
hahahahah

anyways sent aunt genie and brad and dean off at T3 on tues night
they were back for too short a period this time round!
really sucks to wait for another 2 yrs to see them agn!

anyways, overall the yr hasnt been all that bad so far
but i've been gettin into bouts of depression really bad
juz last wk had a big quarrel at home
i really should learn how to deal with my emotions better
i wouldn't be able to be a gd therapist if i cant do tt can i?
i duno, sometimes life seems juz so meaningless
home doesnt feel like home
ohwells

exams

2008-08-12T21:58:00.002+08:00

exams have started and is halfway through with 3 done
but so far, all have been bad for me
for today's mobility prac,tho i felt very prepared
i still became too anxious/nervous/flustered
totally screwed it up
my case study was darn easy but i was juz too flustered to do it properly
and to have stupidly said no to a chance in repeating the procedures again
PLUS i freaking hell ripped a hole in my nike bag when i went off
still was quite nervous over the prac while takin my bag to go off
i was too rush and yep there goes my $89 nike bag
i think i thought too much and didnt put what i know into action properly
didnt ask for allocation of marks so i was kinda shocked over the allocation of marks over what i have to do
i mean like omg 30m per qn?! and i did the 3 qns like really fast
ok i didnt take note of the timing but to me everyone felt like wham time juz flew past
i should have calmed down and did better in this
really disappointed in myself

breathe and live for anatomy&biomechanics/psychology/physiology

《一切完美》

2008-08-04T00:57:00.002+08:00

我知道我变漂亮了《一切完美》主题曲: 石欣卉

过去的批评嘲讽 Let it go Let it go
过去的轻蔑冷落 Let it go Let it go
有些人口不饶人却忘了瞧瞧自己
又有什么资格

时刻都善良待人 Let’s move on Let’s move on
时刻都做好本分 Let’s move on Let’s move on
有些人心思浅薄绝不是宽容
自暴自弃的理由

也许确实也受过言语打击
也许从来也没什么好际遇
但千万别将勇气深锁在阴影里
我们又不会妨碍这世界继续美丽

我知道我变漂亮了
我知道我被注意了
曾难过失落
微笑一下就过
外在的美貌容易戳破
内在的美好细水长流

我知道我变漂亮了
我知道我也豁达了
不自卑不埋怨
就算还差一点点
用内涵弥补一切缺陷
内在的美迷住每个人的眼

aunt genie

2008-08-04T00:27:00.003+08:00

exams are coming!im dead
TOTALLY

but i had to go out this wkend
its rare that aunt genie get to come back with her 2 boys (bradley and dino) from england
the last time they came back was 2 yrs ago, can u imagine
the next time they come back, i think these 2 angmoh kids will not wanna be running arnd playin anymore, they'll most probably have girlfriends too by then hahah.
sat had a really late lunch with them at 4pm and we did a lil grocery shopping before gg back to the hotel to catch the ndp preview, fireworks and all the plane stunts.
we were on the 46th floor! had a really good view of marina and the surrounding area.
tho the fireworks display was a lil off angle from our building
we were facing the platform instead of the fireworks side so didnt get a full view
but still got to catch the planes stunts.really cool
holed up in the room the whole night and had some shokudo takeaways later in the night
we finished up a ton of snacks as well, such pigs
bradley became more mischevious and his actions more like his dad
still the more handsome of the two lol

and today(sunday) thanks to aunt genie, we had a treat from my granduncle at geylang's no signboard seafood restaurant
the geylang branch is still the best i must say. their crabs rock!
esp the chilli crabs with the mantou!
haha but even with 8 crabs, there were not enough pincers to go arnd for the younger ones like moi! the adults were left to eat the legs lol
granduncle booked two big tables for a total of 26 ppl,
so yea tonight's bill was about 1000 with the big feast that he ordered for us.
can already feel my stomach growing.
but ohwells, i guess its gonna be feast all the way till aunt genie goes back with the boys on the 19th
they'll be setting off for china in a couple of days coming back on the 12th and finally home sweet home to england on 19th
mental note to myself: take a picture with the boys before they leave!

exams. hai.

anyways hooked onto my two perfect cut songs haha.
i want the kit chan cd!

《一切完美》

2008-08-04T00:16:00.003+08:00

你没想像中爱我《一切完美》插曲/片尾曲:石欣卉

你小心翼翼牵我手
其实是担忧藏不住我
自尊也投降活在她之下
我好傻

你字字句句说你不爱她
那又是什么让你害怕
我疑惑但是原谅因为你留下
我好傻

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来你没想像中那么爱我
我不懂该拿什么安慰我的难受
你的存在让我更寂寞

你寸步不离像天使的她
挥霍我的爱从不放心上
我有一丝无奈也有一些明白
该放开

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来你没想像中那么爱我
我不能再从你的怀抱感觉到什么
不爱我别再说假装爱那是撒盐在伤口

啊... 谁说我不在意空等候
原来你从来都没深刻爱我
我才懂不是我不心痛
其实是心没了感受

呜... ...

你没想像中爱我

perfect cut drama!

2008-07-27T01:00:00.003+08:00

quotes i like from perfect cut

遇见一个人需要一秒，
认识一个人需要一分钟，
喜欢一个人需要一个小时，
爱上一个人需要一天，
可是如果没有缘分，却需要用一辈子去忘记这个人

世界上没有丑人，只有穷人

只要包容一切的不完美, 一切都会变的完美

love the 2 songs.

manda's back from sydney!

2008-07-16T01:00:00.003+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHH

ok today was an eventful day for me!

lets blog about happy things first

WELCOME HOME MANDA!
steamboat dinner at perry's suggested by dear nicole moosa who can keep secrets for once.HAHA
amanda ang totally just walked through perry's door as tho she has never left
like omg! it felt so surreal,
one moment i was happily being an elephant and stuffing my face with food from the pot
the next moment this figure walks thru as tho she juz decided to teleport from aussie
and im sure y'all can guess, many screams followed
manda, you give the best surprises and i sure missed all the stupid comments from u
but most of all just having you around! reuniting an almost complete 10
im really glad u're back love!
ps: ds and david you're not forgotten
the familiarity of it all plus laughter all night accompanied by ben&jerry's dublin mudslide
of coz not forgettin the peektures but considering that i've gained weight these 3 wks,
i think i look disgustin in most of them
(reminder to self: STOP BEING AN ELEPHANT EVERDAY AND LOSE WEIGHT!!!)
presents for everyone from manda and jessie!
planned for our next hopefully not so wild LGD nw that both sonn and manda are back
AND picnic outing AND CJLMXLB before the few of them sets off for melbourne next wk

urghhh, its so unfair that all my friends have been going on countless trips around the world while im stuck in singapore trying to have a balance between sch and social life!
i wanna go overseas too!
i need to study hard!
EXAMS ARE OMINOUSLY LOOMING NEAR!
first paper 6th aug, pray for me.

ok so anyway the first part of my day which was the not so happy part
i spent most of the first half of the day feeling really indignant and irritated for my dear clsmate
how can anyone be so clueless/without any trace of EQ?
how can anyone be so insensitive?
how can anyone like that have lived through 21 years of his life with that warped behaviour?
how can anyone like that be in my class?
how am i gonna survive with that someone for the rest of the 3 years in NYP?
ps: even if i get bad karma, i must still say i will never be able to learn to like you

that's all for today folks.

random

2008-07-14T00:13:00.004+08:00

been doing quite afew deviant acts in school these two wks
but its fun! especially wearin the ladybird mask tryin to publicise our creativity exhibition
tho most ppl i tink juz took us for some looneys lol.
and i actually thought i wont be recognised!
im really proud of my grp's product, it gives me such a great sense of achievement hearing the gd feedback from the lecturers and others who came by for the exhibition.
and of coz we're counting on sock's sis to help our product fa yang guang da in KK!
and tho my creativity juices are not really in existence, im gonna miss creativity class especially when JO is such an interesting person to be with.

we're gonna be hosting 3 japanese students coming september!
i tink it'll be quite cool. :-)

exams are really looming near.its too scary
so much more to catch up on.so lil time
leaving me still undecided on my commitment to dance
anyways they had their lunchtime concert on wed!and another one coming wed.
the seniors' cha cha was probably the most synchro dance haha but nonetheless, everyone was pretty good and the girls looked sexyyy!

ok juz a random post of whatever came to my mind so ciao

dancesport competition 2008

2008-06-30T23:31:00.003+08:00

ok sat was spent as per normal with dance prac in the morning
still suck at my dances though
anyways what was more exciting to come was the dancesport competition held at ntu
(omg so freakin far)
it was quite an eye opener i muz say
the hot dancers plus the smokin' costumes!woo
and some of the routines were really gd!
haha like pauline's!
too slpy to blog in detail but yea the competition was really gd
the kids were damn cute!and the few siblings teams were cool too.

anyways i met ijrcy junior there!
lynette the bimbo! hahah she competed for NP like omg, so fast?!!!!
she's only year 1 like me can meaning she should have joined arnd the same time as me?!
ohwells the wonders of what instructors can do mayb.
i didn't recognise her though so didn't see her dance, i don't even know what costume she wore.
she came up to me nearing the end of the com to say hi and i was quite stunned haha.
the make up really makes all of them look different on the dance floor man.

ok anyways, sonn's back!
gonna have dinner with the girls later on tonight!exciting!!
ciao everyone!

the day i saw DAREN!0.5metres!

2008-06-26T23:25:00.002+08:00

this is definitely worth bloggin pls

OMG. I SAW DAREN!!!!!!!!
met foxy for some impulsive shoppin after lect today
but ok first i muz say i saw daren at the cine traffic light!
he was juz right infront of me when crossin the road!
but i was too chicken to say hi and get a pic taken with him!
ahhhhhh

ok so yea decided to catch up with my dear foxy since i ended sch early today and havent got back the mood to study since tues after the test
been bummin arnd these two days
spent alot of money agn today!
i totally impulsively bought a pair of beige brown sandal havianas!
for like 50bucks.madness pls.i swear i was mentally unsound at tt pt of time
but ok la this shall end my GSS shopping tho i didnt even get a discount for my havianas!
sis and i have bought alot of new clothes and stuff over these 3 mnths, both of us gg bangkok plus sis gg to china and both of us shoppin at GSS so yea pls learn to control urself miss michelle lee!
so yea besides my havianas, i spent useless money on my nature valley energy bars and my hair clips too. i didn't manage to buy alot of other stuff on my TO BUY LIST. ahhh my wants are nvr ending i swear.
after walkin arnd taka, heeren, cine for abit, we went to cine's 4th level sofa to await the arrival of foxy's brother!
they had sibling time today watchin wanted together
haha he's so shy but ya they really do look alike!

anyways today we had a shockin sms from miss PETRINA TAN!
foxy and i totally screamed when we saw her sms.hahahha the sky's falling!
really lookin forward to meetin up with ALL the girls next wk with miss pet tan finally showin up!

anyways guys, if y'all havent tried DON's PERSONAL PIE CLUB's chicken pie,
PLEASE HURRY GO GET ONE RIGHT NOW!
its omg heavenly!
urghhh, the hse's been having too much food supply these few wks
or mayb its juz the gluttony me acting up agn
I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT!!!!!!!

ok tt's all for nw folks.
love y'all!

stressed up back to sch monday!

2008-06-26T22:54:00.005+08:00

hey blog,

ok the first part of this wk gg back to sch has been really a rough patch for me
since the whole two wks of hols was devoted to ULP and dance camp with the in between rest days(catching up on sleep), doing stuff for the various projects plus studyin for my FTT(of coz i passed) and having totally no time to study at all!

dance camp was crazy, slept much later den ULP(5am) with the dance-a-thon on the 2nd night
was so exhausted after the camp but it was fun considering that we bonded and all
special mention to darlings ZOE, YILING, JULENE, JUN BOON, GRACE, VENALIE, ANGELA, DOREEN
many many unglam photos of me agn.rahhh

ok so yea mon i broke down from stress!
almost died with so many things in my mind
the physio test, creativity grp report(my grp mates were the best!), dance assessment
skipped dance in the end coz i figured i came to nyp to study and not to dance
i mean i dun even need a CCA so yea
but i felt like crap really, esp since i really practiced my rumba when i came home from camp and after makin zoe, jun boon etc puke blood tryin to teach me the steps durin camp
BUT i still am gonna fail physio since it was such last min studyin
i totally didnt know almost the whole paper at all. haii
my 3.9 GPA is distancing itself from me!

huixin's birthday!

2008-06-17T22:49:00.003+08:00

helloo blog im back agn

thurs (miss poh huixin's birthday!) was spent with my dear dear pam, foxy, bel, christy and of coz the birthday girl HUIXIN!
only managed to have dinner with them though and caught up abit on their lives
wanted to have dinner at the jap marche(shokudo) but the queue was insanely long so we went to shokudo pasta place at citylink instead
i felt so bad for juz havin dinner and rushin off for ULP pre camp
afterall i havent seen them for so long esp miss ISABEL WONG!
but stupid boon so gd life go korea.hmpf im jealous.
ohwells, girls i promised i will meet up with y'all soon
i will really try to do that!
really love the clutch bag from accessorize and diva necklace they got me
anyways i was cheated agn!
foxy kept lookin at this waiter and smiling so i thought he was her fren
but it turned out tt she was juz askin him to bring out the birthday cake for us.omg how dumb can i get like seriously hahah

was at the rc campsite for 5days4nights!gosh
i came back really burnt lookin like a charcoal, i have not been this black since i was sec 3 !
this is my first ULP since i nvr took part as a cadet or as a vi
i muz say i learnt some things as well, not only the trainees
a satisfyin feeling watching my mentees improve
lucky there were the juniors like baby zhong! and esther arnd to lead cheers
since i'm one who nvr can remember cheers so obviously i cant lead cheers haha
it was also fun having xiaoyuan with me through the camp
by the end of camp, many ppl were sayin 'cui' and 'totally'
lol trademark phrases from xy! even in sch pls
well, she's the reason why im even back for red cross anyways after swearin tt i would nvr return
it was comfortin havin her by my side and also talkin to those beloved vis whom i have not seen for so long on campfire night
my dear jason, stephen, qingxiang, hong yi and many others!
was feelin a lil down on campfire night so yea thanks ppl!
wrote notes for my mentees and i totally didn't pass it to them
ohwells, i'll get xy to pass it to them durin coc i guess
came back arnd 7+ and after dinner i was so shagged i immediately bathed and fell aslp at about 8+/9pm
am sick currently from the late nights, totally not enough slp!
hope i get well soon.

okie dokes tt's all for nw folks!
cheerios

my birthday 2008!

2008-06-11T17:24:00.004+08:00

hey my dear blog, how are you?!
hahahahh

ok my birthday has been a day worth bloggin about
these past 2 birthdays have really been memorable for me
with all my dear friends spending it with me
just having the company made me feel so loved

sunday was my birthday dinner with the family at sheraton tower's Li Bai
it was juz the usual dinner la so yea nth much to say, juz tt the food is as fabulous as always
and pricey.heh

my special day:
psycho/socio project meeting with my grp in the mornin and prac a lil mobility after
went for late late lunch snack at amk hub mos burger
and i stupidly did not even notice anyone buyin a birthday cake for me
out came a surprise, *drum roll* fang li came at 4+
i was juz sittin there stoning, talking with the girls and totally did not expect anythin
juz like how i was tricked by rosie last year and totally did not know that they were gonna turn up in my hse to celebrate my birthday for me.
i'm really glad that within this short term of sch, ive made so many wonderful friends
but juz when im startin to feel attached to all of u, there muz be departures
to fang li and phebe: y'all better keep in touch or else i'll kill u,esp after u made me cry so much on friday!
A BIG THANK YOU TO DESIREE, VIOLET, CHEE, FANG LI, DEE for celebrating my birthday with me! and i feel so bad that we didn't sing a birthday song for DEE as well!!! but nvm, the cake was also for u ok dee!

dinner was at Dan Ryan's with the girls perry, jessie, nicky, rosie
and of coz david who came for Sex and the City.
just the company alone made me happy.
y'all juz made the night amazing, with the doodles on the table setting which i got as souvenior
hahah plus my balloon and cake from the restaurant
but im so sad we left the dan ryans umbrellas which were given to us to brave the storm in the cinema! :(
but love all the pretty presents i got especially the unconventional earrings. :)
plus the movie which david totally slept thru half of it
all of you are a big part of my life. really love all of you! ;-)
ps: claire you're not forgotten! manda and ds you're not too!

also thanks to everyone else who remembered!
pam, hx and jason one of the firsts to wish me, germaine my dear cousin, stephen, alicia, bev, terri, ash, bel, foxy, christy, mx, aly, wenfang, leonard, guo zhong, esther, my C3 mentees, yuanhao, janice, leo, lammyjie, qingxiang, clarissa, elizabeth, nick tang

got sunburnt from the OT outing on monday and off i am tml to ULP 08 camp till mon plus dance camp on wed to sat.gosh i hope i really do lose some of my fats
everyone pls pray hard for my physio ICA coz i really am gonna die.

BACK TO SCHOOL

2008-04-24T20:22:00.003+08:00

ok hmm i still have like loyal readers i know like pam.wahahha
i should really change to livejournal but den knowin myself
i hardly ever update and im so lazy to do all these layout and what not shit
so aiya watever man lol

anyways i know its been a mnth since i last blog
lots and lots have happened in this period of time
for example bangkok trip with the girls end march/april
'lotsa' shoppin done=new clothes for SCHOOL

ok so yea the latest happenings in my life is BACK TO SCHOOL
omigosh
having not used my brain for like 4mnths,i had a hard time switchin back to studyin mode
AND switching my biological clock to the early mornings and late days
stupid timetable is much more horrible den JC pls.
and no more mummy express for lalee as of this yr
meanin i take a whole hr to get to sch
plus one hr to get ready for sch=WAKING UP FREAKING EARLY every single day
and coming home so late every single day
(ok at least i've got CTE-clarissa tan express! every mon and tues)
its sucha torture
so exhausted and drained i have no idea how im gonna manage my life
really in need of some time management here

so yep orientation was a bad day so we shall not talk about it
but sch got much much better when it officially started! :):):)
i have beloved crazy xiaoyuan in the same course
and clsmates are nice,well MOST i can clique with lol
so yep OT0801!
sch's a lil tough with all the modules i have to take
anatomy,physiology,psychology,sociology,mobility,creativity,singapore healthcare systems,intro to OT theories and process and MALAY my elect
prac tests, presentations and wad not feels like its gonna be due really soon
but ohwells i guess i gotta be SELF MOTIVATING since its a choice i made
2nd wk 8th day of sch and u see the whole course in the library durin 3hrs break studyin
how scary is tt
i predict it's gonna be the most hardworkin period of my life since Os and As i was busy slackin away
the thickness of all the textbooks are scary and the cost is even omg.all more den 60bucks
anyways there's too much details since i've not been bloggin so yea this is a really really summarised version of what's been in my life.teehee

the most interestin thing i've experienced in my life was choosing of electives
registration opened on 22nd april and before 12midnight everyone was infront of their com alr
well limited spaces
lucky for me i managed to get malay at 1200 and tt was gone at 12.02
12.05 jap was gone and by morning 9am there was onli life sciences module left wth

anyways i've always been dance inclined and since i didn't get to stick with it thru secondary,
(or rather i sucked at hip hop) i've signed up for ballroom dance in nyp!
hope i'll have time to do this at least for the first yr and
hmm accepted my first red cross event for the yr since the last event in feb 2007
boring job i must say but ohwells gg back with xiaoyuan and we'll see how tt goes

okays, i'll be back to update more, gotta go mug
its alr 8.42pm
OMG
DIE!

i miss bumming arnd not doin anything but meetin up with the two impt grp of girls in my life and having romantic nights alone with pam!
i love all of you!
strawberry kisses!

tho i know y'all wont get to see this
but i hope we'll be great coursemates for the next 3 yrs OT0801/02/03! increasing cohort with current count of 57!
esp OT0801-CHEE, violet, zelda, sock, fang li, phebe, dee, leo, desiree, emily, jasmine, hiang suan, chern ling, eileen, lay kim, pearly, joel
(i hope i'll be lalee instead of michelle so common pls)

heart stopped

2008-03-17T11:52:00.002+08:00

my heart is pumpin really fast now
the shock and fear plus worries
everythin is piling up and naggin at the back of my head
i cant take this
i know im cruel but i think it would be for the best if IT or THEY are got rid of
life sucks

2008-03-16T00:18:00.002+08:00

ok results not really ideal
the past few days has been really taxin on my lil brain
thinkin through over and over bout the courses to apply for at uni
and the possible career prospects to come
life is juz a teeny bit directionless for me right nw
no idea wad will be the final result at the end of it all

ot and pt has always been my choice for the past 2 yrs
but obviously tt cant be my onli ones for nw
and thinkin bout it,its really very specialised and i might possibly be stuck with juz one job for the rest of my life and cant change?
tt thought is kinda scary
on the other hand the new course offered at ntu this yr came along at the right time for me
juz when i was wonderin if there's any course related to this field
its diverse and sounds intriguin but not yet established
so its as directionless for me
wad if i end up with nth from this course too
gosh.my brain's exploding someone help me

anyways big news in the house since fri
dunno wad to say or wad to tink
juz gonna leave it to the two adults to decide
no more space left in my brain to bother myself with it
nor do i feel im in the position to say anythin either
altho i sorta dun really wan it to happen
i mayb be mean but ohwells

2008-02-21T23:01:00.002+08:00

hmm been really lazy to keep this thing up
lol i dunno why i juz seem to have so many things undone
mayb its coz i juz sit infront of the com all whole and waste my life away doin god knows what
the stuff tt i need to get done juz lay in a corner and right at the back of my mind
whereas the com and tv are not necessities but its what i keep usin since work ended lol!
anyways earned $813 in 16days.not bad eh

anyways since the last post
there's been ij mass, CNY, valentines day, fdcom

ij mass with rosie nicky panty and amanda was great
its been sucha long time and the feelin of sch was juz omg
with jo teo shoutin at the students, familiar faces of the teachers
camwhored a lil,slack in the staffroom talked to afew teachers
and told them tt they're teachin my sis which juz irritated the hell outta lynette
hahahaha
brought oranges for blessing and nicky took unglam pics of me holdin them up
lazy afternoon spent with them at cjlmxlb den to nicky's hse
finally got peektures from her!
reunion dinner that night at home as usual

den came all that hussle of cny
visitin non stop for 3 days blahblahblah
perry's on the 3rd night.mahjong!
catchin up with leonard
open hse on the 4th day and the sunday after
i gained back 2 kg which i lost so painstakingly pls
oh gosh and nw im still eatin all the goodies left.rahh someone pls juz tape my mouth

valentines day was night in at rosie's lil india hse
with champagne and a lovely homecooked dinner by perry
den can u believe it, titanic for the rest of the night!hahhah

den came fdcom
lol havent been back for red cross for a yr
hmm went to sheryl's hse with dawn and yiping the day before for mahjong
got lost for abit and i got there in 1.5 hrs.gosh almost died
i muz say the ij kids have really improved
i tink they did quite well at the fdcom.
cont working towards an ij comeback!

yest (wed 19/2)
watched p.s i love you with terri
its not bad i muz say.ohwells im a sucker for chickflicks hahhaha
convinced her to get a gorgeous guess bag instead of a hideous aldo one!
back to my hse for abit
and the long lost mr loh weijie dropped by.
i think he muz have felt tortured havin to eat all the food my mom stuffed him with

as for today
decided to go swimmin at src.
gotta try hard to get rid of the extra 3 kg of fats on me when ive got the time
and discovered many facilities we've nvr used at the club
mummy made frens with this lady in the changin rm
she bought her membership at $100
so imagine how long she muz have been a member
mummy wants to go see their line dancin session next wk

kays.im borin i know hahhaha.

few things comin up next.
results and application keeps lurkin somewhere in my head
basic theory test
hmm i tink its time to date some pp out too

cant wait for the bangkok trip with the girlfriends next mnth!

jeff and susan's wedding

2008-02-04T22:14:00.000+08:00

ok the week of blues has come and passed
hmm highlights of these two wks?
manda left on sat 2nd feb
i didnt get to send the girl off but i'll be waitin for you to come back!!!
the one thing tt sucks bout growin up is juz how everyone starts to lead their own separate lives and start to leave

one sad thing but there were afew other happy things
thursday 31st jan!
met pam and boon for 27 dresses
the thought of meetin them juz cheered me up for the whole day
i decided to dress up a lil before gg to work too
i think i've become too used to having pam arnd!
imagine the 6 years of friendship between us,7th yr running oh gosh

ok the big highlight is my cousin, jeff's wedding on sat 2/2/8!
tea ceremony and all in the mornin so bloody hell had to wake up so early
did my hair at the salon in the noon
and off we were to pine tree club for the weddin dinner
i tink this would be the first wedding dinner tt i enjoyed every single dish
really gd yumyum
anyway this animated video of the couple was played and it was so cute
susan's green dress was damn pretty too
apparently an imitation of one of zhang ziyi's dress
lol in afew days they gotta start their angbao givin alr.wad bad timing huh
anyways this yr is gonna be great two newly married couples and another of my guy cousin's wedding due in a few mnths
all the wedding dinners to cam whore at with the girls !
and the many babies to come hahahha
oh as usual at the weddin my sisters and i started to cam whore with my lil baby cousin jarrod
oh gosh he's really really chubby and cute.
boon calls him the piglet lol
gonna grow up really handsome like his dad

kays i better be off nw since its so late and ive got work tml!
but its the last day for the wk and break for cny!yayyy
angbaos come my way pls.im reallly broke to the max.
shop and shop every wk leavin me with not much kaching alr
but im happy with all my buys.gonna save them all for cny hahah
new pjs,3 dresses,1 top,1 gorgeous red bag.1 pair of sexy red shades
i tink tts all?
kays those are my buys for the mnth of jan

oh btw im sry for not havin a tagboard arnd
for those who still reads this crap of mine hahah
im not gd at this

love stops when vengeance ends
that took a huge burden off my shoulder on thurs when i discovered it for myself

till next time folks

life sucks

2008-01-24T23:24:00.000+08:00

this whole wk has gone totally haywired
it seems like work is the only time when i feel a great sense of relief from everythin else in life
when i wont have the chance to rmb or think about stuff

i hate being accused of who im not
i hate being accused of what im not
i hate the quarrels
i hate feeling all alone
i hate the tears
i hate being in this world that feels so surreal
i hate that i dont believe in anythin
i hate it even more that all of this feels all too familiar ,
that im returnin to what it was like before years back

goodnight world
its time for some rest before another day of work

post dedicated to foxy and gang!

2008-01-07T12:02:00.000+08:00

ok since its nw holidays ive decided to come back and make this blog breathe agn!
woohoo
hmm i've left this dead for almost a whole yr and this being my first post of the yr 2008, of coz it will be sth worth talkin about

DEDICATED TO THE GIRLS!

watched beauty world with my favourites yest! 6th jan 2008
FOXY, PAM, BOON, CHRISTY, HUIXIN, BEL, MY SISTER, CHRISTY's SISTER
seriously ive nvr felt so happy for sucha long long time
being light headed seeing daren!
so flustered and turning really really red in the face
gettin all excited and shy at the same time
just well being a silly little girl all over agn
the company i had made it all even better
just being arnd these girls who made my jc life worth rememberin
it's really been one memorable night to mark the start of 2008 for me
makes it feel as tho 2008 would be a fantastic year ahead

tho it's a little late
but still a really BIG THANK YOU to the 7 of you for everythin in 2007!

note to myself:do up the blog!

after CTs

2007-03-06T20:36:00.000+08:00

ok im back to update agn
CTs has ended
finally recovered from like 2wks long of cough and what not
CTs is screwed but aiya i shall not think about it
cant wait for the one wk hols to come!
only three more days of sch
jiayou!
gonna have like zoo cip and all durin hols
it also means tt its time to go rosie's hse to save photos of our meetups to print!
and i wanna watch movies!
gotta date yi er and joanne out soon

anyways been gg out after the last paper last fri
oh yea last fri was chi results too
satisfied with my grade xp
fri night was meet up with rosie claire and david
nth much done but it was alright
sat and sun was spent at econs and maths tuition
AND watchin my girl haha
i finish the whole series,16 episodes in three days

mon(yest) went shoppin with jessie and rosie!
first we had lunch at clarity's at purvis street
the cafe is so colourful, nice place feels cosy
haha i need photos for yest man
anyways a sumptous meal there
den we went shoppin at icon
i onli discovered tt place yest
i think some of the shops sell really nice stuff
the onli bad thing about the place is tt u have to use the stairs for 6levels
ok i think hardly anyone comes to my blog so it'll be ok to say it here la
bought all of bel's presents from there!
i really hope she likes it.blahh
ok den off we went shoppin at bugis street and bugis junction
hmm i din get tobuy anythin yest for myself
saw a pretty pink and white prints dress tho at bugis street
but din try it coz there was onli the display piece left
din wanna make myself sadder coz it was like cheap!
we went to tpc for awhile den home it was
a lonnng long day full of walkin man
omg i juz realise mayb the reason my legs were achin today is not from pe but from all the walkin yest!hahahha

the stupid earthquake today helped sa ppl to get half day of sch
wad rubbish
if onli i had tt for sucha long day today
yest's half day was like no use for us coz my cls alr ends at 12
sucks

ok the rest of the wk will be occupied too
fri might be out with sheryl baeyy dawn and weng zai
ok more things i have to do in these few days to come
send ds more emails!
get somone to scan my mc for me!haha
ok tt's all for today
i know this blog is like borin la
hahahha i wonder who in the worlds stills comes here ok

jinxed?!

2007-02-24T10:05:00.000+08:00

i think im seriously jinxed or sth la!
ever since the stomach infection in sec3,
ive been fallin sick everytime before a big exam
like omg,juz kill me pls
damn irritatin la,cant study properly
this is the third time this yr tt im sick!
ive been havin high fever since wed night and i sorta lost my voice yest
and im still not ok gosh
first it was cough
next came fever then came sore throat
and juz when i thought i was better alr last night
this mornin wakin up early at 9 to try make up for lost time for studyin
i got my fever back at 38 agn!wth la
and i got flu.every single possible sickness i can get ive got it
wad rubbish is this.
rahhh,im feelin damn drowsy nw juz came to rant
gonna catch a short nap before wakin up to really study agn.
ok den.till the next time everyone!
(ps i still cant believe how stupid cj is to always put our exams earlier den every other sch present on this surface of the earth.urghh like right after cny.dumb)
and hah chingay so many from cj cant the sch think.
nvm coz im not gg for chingay either way.too sick to go and i need to study!

valentines day this yr

2007-02-14T20:20:00.000+08:00

its valentine's day agn!
hahah happy valentines day to everyone!
thanks for all the love to lalee thru all ur hugs and kisses,cookies and lollipops and many many more!too many to name but yep each and everyone of u are all so sweet!xp
hope everyone had a great time with their other half
a day full of love and warmth everywhere lol
wonderin why im bloggin
THAT is the reason!
today is a gd and happy day for lalee coz its one of the days where i feel so loved
and a day where i especially love each and every single one of my clsmates
quote from ronald chan yong jie:this is my fave day of sch!
a 6 hr day but with a straight 3 hr break in between!
exchange of gifts in the mornin was whoa chaotic
and then T33 had our macdonald's breakfast treat from our dear my kwee!
for the next two hrs besides more givin out of my handmade chocolate cornflakes
we all sat at the grandstand sorta bonding.teehee
camwhoring with the girls and then the guys joined in too
formed T33 on the field!
so much photos to get from the cls and print.
oh man my photo album is gonna burst haha
sat arnd juz enjoyin each other's company with my dear glen silin and ketsu! before i went for like hmm 45min of tt disgustin cca im in.
if u noe wad, gd for u, if not, dont even ask.
ok thats all i wanna say.
how great this valentines day has been this yr
lol tho the boyfriends' pockets burn a big hole,its just so sweet to see the lil things they do
tho lalee din get any flowers!boohoo
NOTE: ROSIE dont worry, sometime i will make u chocolate cornflakes too alright.
oh yea for anyone who hasnt donated at the blood drive
make sure u do tml yea
spread the love darlings!
really lookin forward to meetin some of the girls on fri night
and mayb cls outin tml or sat
AND CNY of coz!
collect angbaos my hobby la haha
gg to mr ng's hse and seein 4/4!

ok tt's all for today folks
stay tune for the next entry some time er not too far away mayb
but yea econs test tml!and common tests comin right up oh no.

note:haha everyone should stop hopin for a tagboard to pop up or my blog layout to like improve.
lalee is too lazy unless someone's sucha sweetheart to help me.

dawn oh and ds!

2007-01-21T12:07:00.000+08:00

hmm nth much to update really coz my life has been really borin since sch started
everyday juz gg to sch and mummy pickin me up straight after tt
come home dinner do homework a lil tv slp
and this endless cycle is repeated continuously
whined and complained to rosie about it lol

ok so the onli day i went out after sch is last friday!
woohoo ,i met miss DAWN OH!
like omg, i havent gone out with her since like mayb sec3?
tts like hmm 3yrs ago.
even the last time i coincidentally bumped into her was like sec4 i tink
her habit of makin me wait never changed
i rmb the longest time i waited for her was like 2 hrs
and yest i sat at far east bus stop for 1 hr!goodness
had fun walkin arnd town with her juz catchin up on our lives and all
bought a handbag for weng too

den in the night, met my favourites at newton mrt
rosie,ds,jessie,claire for dinner!
decided to not go to the rip off newton circus but fish&co's at novena
haha coz well lalee is deprived and nvr ate there before
dinner was great but i like ate too much
the company was even better
takin retarded photos together,laughin over silly things
and claire the clumsy tryin to be strong and spillin drink everywhere
(claire, im not blonde!)
yep blahblahblah juz gossipin as usual lol
and after dinner we decided to take a bus to far east
den we walked from far east to dhoby gaut station to digest the massive amt of food in me
imagine why my legs were achin the next day
juz walkin and walkin the whole day

sat, went hq with lammyjie to collect p1's signature!haha
had lunch at pastamania with gela before headin to clementi
heh tt was the turnin pt of the day
when we got off at clementi,it was rainin cats and dogs
like omg so damn heavy and i had no umbrella
so yea got drenched and all
tt really pissed me off so bad
i hate gettin wet in my nice clothes ok
so nw not onli the sun is my enemy but the rain is my enemy too
and when we got to nus,everythin juz added onto my bad mood
some dumbass bridge competition
can u believe i sat there for nearly 5 bloody hrs playin bridge?wth
so freakin borin and the first pair of guys we played against were pissin me off so bad
tt guy had a 'come punch me' face and asked me some qn which i din understood at all and he tried to stare me down or sth.like rahhh get lost
so the rest of the competition i was bein grouchy and couldnt really care anymore
i juz wanted to go home
daddy came to pick me up and we went thai village at goodwood to eat
BUT my mom juz had to tell me i looked fat in my jeans and shirt
like thanks alot for addin to my grumpiness
lucky i cant eat out so often anymore onli friday and sat for this wk
she's juz makin me think about my weight every single day and night

ok tts the update for this wk.gg off to try finishin my homework before gg for tuition at 5.30pm
all thanks to a wasted day yest at nus.thank god im not playin agn on the 27th or i'll kill myself

ps:im so sorry ds i cant send you off at the airport today but try to come back agn yr end ok
or before manda leaves if she really goes.i'll be so depressed.thanks for ur rockcandies!teehee

thoughts on cj

2007-01-07T01:03:00.000+08:00

hmm first three days of sch have juz gone in a flash
was really really tired from sch on fri tt i really buay tahan
came hme from cca bazaar and headed straight to the bathroom and bed till 8+

i dunno why but these three days of sch had me thinkin alot
not emoin away but i guess juz an extended reflections about 2006 and thoughts about 2007
i nvr really felt at home or really happy in cj last yr
it was like after orientation and all
i suddenly juz shut out the world and couldnt be the person i was in first three mnths
but gg back to sch seein all the frens i made last yr
i realised cj has really grown on me nevertheless
seein my frens in cj,recievin hugs from them after the hols
i juz get tt warm fuzzy feelin inside
which is why i conclude hugs are the best gifts anyone can give to me
there are juz so many frens i made in cj worth rememberin
ian tan ketsu the one person who nvr fails to make my day last yr
and theres ppl from t10 like marty,the sji guys,shijie,t33 and many many more
i will cherish this yr with them

and terri!i duno if u will read this but i missed you.gg out with you everythin yea.xp

oh yea about watever i did on the last day of nov durin hols
after tt 'argument', though i still at times hope for sth
and my heart skips a beat, i think i will nvr regret my decision and im still glad i did it
because its juz what i should have done a long time ago
someday, i will nvr rmb u existed in my life before

ok anyways i signed up for chingay
spent sat mornin at chingay ice breakin thing
oh man i kinda regret it nw and i feel like quittin like seriously.
haish.we'll see how it goes

2007-01-02T01:36:00.000+08:00

oh yea did i mention tt my mom's fren's 2nd son is a hunk!
hahah eyecandy at the hse on sunday night man
i figured he's about 2 to 3 yrs older den me.

last of 2006 and beginnings

2007-01-01T12:35:00.000+08:00

ok one last post before sch reopens
hmm 25th/26 dec xmas at riverview was ok
nth much to elaborate on

stayed home for most of this last wk
not accomplishin much either

29th dec
hmm mom had small party at home
dunno most of the ppl
went to campsite for the VIs gatherin at 9+
have to say a big THANK YOU to the old man mr stephen wong
for buyin the cake and bringin it to campsite for me as well as gettin me tt big discount
went there and hang out with yi er joanne all for about 2 hrs
oh yea saw miss wenfang and many many others whom ive not seen for a long long time
den yep took train back with joanne

30th!
woke up early went down to rosie's hse to meet the girls plus rosie's schmates
hmm gave her her birthday surprise
waited for quite a long time for her to get home tho
so all of us decided to order in macs while waitin
hmm left rosie's hse arnd 4.30pm
mummy came to pick me up
i swear she loves rosie
anyways had LGD4 at night with EVERYONE(except for alicia) at sonn's place
they tried to trick me into glammin up and wearin a dress but of coz i figured tt out
so yea daddy drove me to sonn's hse at 10+
and my sisters juz had to check the hse out lol
glory and i prepared chocolate fountain
chocolate fountain complete with marshmallows,fruits,breadsticks
there were crackers with dips and cheese,ham and yea juz alot of food
plus of coz the drinks!kindly sponsored by sonn
we had our xmas exchange!
got my gold clutch from alicia and gave claire her silver clutch.xp
the night was fun with the drinks,crazy dancin blahblah
and well i stayed sober with jessie and rosie
had juz a pimms and a lil frozen magarita(i swear sonn makes the best!)
tried to settle down all the crazy drunkens
and had a lil heart to heart with manda sonn ds perry and david while the 5 of them are in drunken state and highness,promises made and all
finally gave up and fell aslp at 5+am
ohwells read the manda's blog for more details
it was a great day spent with great company
and i really realised tt i do love every single one of them alot

spent the few hrs before 2007 at mom's fren's hse den came home alone before 11pm

2006 wasnt fantastic
but i got thru it thanks to many

to my bestest frens on earth,
claire for always bein there in sch not forgettin me,for all the fun,laughs and love!
rosie for naggin at me to study,studyin with me before promos,plannin the 5's birthdays together and bein there to talk to!
perry for bein my bimbo fren despite all ur bitchiness, signin up for amore together, for bein sane,normal and for juz bein u!
manda tho u always suan me,laugh at me or whatever not, for juz not forgettin bout lalee and spendin time with me this hols and yes kickboxin is juz not my cup of TEA lol
jessie for bein in cj with me, for the encouragements when u see me in sch
david tho ure an annonyin clsmate who starts singin randomly and not so nicely all the time, im still glad ure my clsmate for these two yrs of my jc life
nicky and ds for juz bein the weird nicoles y'all are,speakin at a pace i can barely catch,havin T.E.A with me at bakerzin
sonn i dun talk to u much,i still love you and its great ure back in spore this hols,makin lgd4 possible,makin it the best night of 2006 where all of us are spendin quality time together
alicia tho ur cls is juz two doors down the corridor and we have the same lit cls,we hardly talk but rmb tt i still love u always and thanks for my xmas present for 2006

to joanne and yi er, for bein great company in rc this yr
to bel for bein the bimbo in T33 and for spendin time with me durin breaks and after sch
to pam for juz bein in T33 with me and bein there for me to get things off my chest when i need
to bev and ash, for not forgettin me always and to our 8th continuin yr of friendship

and to everyone else who played a part in my life for 2006.

2007 will be when i learn to be a better person, a better student to get into nyp, a better fren and juz a better me.

FAT ALERT

2006-12-21T22:42:00.000+08:00

ok hmm vip 0707 campfire
i guess many outstandin vis for 2007
the performances were great seein ppl actin goofy and all
but i really really wanted to attend a real campfire tho
havent been to one in ages
ohwells the stupid rain this wkk
seein the trainees bbq it was like dejavu kinda feelin
juz gg thru tt afew mnths back
hmm came home from campsite feelin not tt great
no, no not tt i din enjoy it
juz seein ppl who makes me 'upset' for some reason or another
notice the inverted commas
because i have no idea how to describe tt sorta feelin
juz sth i dun wanna experience
urgh ok whatever

oh right i went sentosa with family and all mon
and er lets juz say i really hate takin cable car rides ok
my mom bloody well juz made me the joke of the cable car
rahhh
y'all dun have to know juz utterly embarrassin
how can couples have a candle light dinner in a cable car 0n a rainy night!omg

ok anyways the last couple of days ive been really eatin a lot
i dun wanna use it as an excuse
but ever since sometime last yr
everytime im 'upset', i notice i binge
notice the amt of weight i put on in juz a yr
and i bet from all my eatin this wk
ive gained back the 3kg i lost
juz wad i needed huh
for my mom to cont tellin me im fat everytime she sees me
and everytime i wear my clothes and she stares at me with her strikin u with guilt eyes
silently tellin me im damn fat
it doesnt help tt my one mnth package at amore is expirin tml either
last day of gym tml
oh god
i hate exercisin in sch tho
what with the hot sun and all
YUCKS.its juz disgustin.i hate perspirin under the hot sun
makes me weak and DARK
i wanna cont amore but my mom doesnt seem keen on payin for me
hmpff

ok today i went for pilates and gym as usual
the pissin thing was MR YIP ENSHAO!
omg he said he wanna date me today
but when i finished bathin on and went for lunch ALONE at ps
waited and waited for him coz he said he can he will try to come
den he called me and said comin soon
but his soon.HA like 2 hrs passed alr hes still not anywhere to be seen
if he couldnt i would have gladly went home instead of rottin for 3hrs at ps
i was so bloody pissed when he msged me at bloody 4PM to tell me he's gg sentosa for dunno wad recee and cant meet me
RAHH
and yi er didnt wanna watch holiday with me too
wenfang had a date with frens!
boohoo
im so sad
but nvm lucky i met lammyjie at mosburger!
and since her frens decided to go dota she accompany me and walk arnd for awhile
i love lammyjie!
seems like ps was popular today
coz i met my dear dear cousin,germaine(she had to rush to meet her frens couldnt lunch with me!)
den i saw weiren
while with lammyjie,i saw my neighbour with her mom
and charlie's derrick whom i juz met yest
den we saw jf sir,qj and qiuyu sir
den finally i saw yi er!
lol i was wearin a nice shirt rite yi er
den yep saw the rest of charlie

lol notice dec's posts are long eh
well coz when sch reopens most likely the mood to blog will be gone man
in case y'all are wonderin why i dun have a tagboard
tts because im damn lazy to get myself one so yea i'll blog for myself haha
any takers to help me do a new blog layout?and get a tb for me?LOL

ok sth to look forward to for the wkend
mom booked with our hairdresser on sat like FINALLY!
mom's dyin her hair and im REBONDING!
lol im juz sick of my hair and its not long enough to perm so yea try rebondin
but i dun really like the thought of sittin in the salon from 11am to god knows when
and tada i'll have my new hair for sun night, xmas eve!
dad booked riverview hotel agn this yr
so yea gonna be there till like 2am
not stayin this time
but still this xmas's gonna be different
same place,different feelings,different thoughts,different hopes,different ppl to rmb

johnathan leong and darren tan!!

melchoir and melville bday

2006-12-17T01:07:00.000+08:00

shoppin yest and today with mom
went vivocity yest
my mom's first time there
good shoppin coz she bought me two tops!
one black and one grey
and omg i finally finally got myself a wallet too!
a long black guess? wallet!
like finally after mnths of search for the ONE hahha
there were these 2 really really pretty pink bags there
but both were more den a hundred bucks still after discount so obviously cant buy it
it was good shoppin at vivo coz my mom bought herself,me,my sister and my cousin clothes
everyone was happy!

today went far east to buy myself the flowery heels
but decided not to get it in the end coz the quality is quite bad
but its ok, coz i managed to get myself another pair of brown heels
and also bought another white guess? bag today.

ok highlight for today
went to grandaunt's hse agn
birthday celebration for melchoir and melville
but i suppose it was aka christmas party as well
coz granduncle invited his business counterparts
all the angmohs,i think they're like french or sth
this yr's party is even more grand den the last
the twins are really lucky so young and their bday are like so bloody grand
wad i consider true blue born with silver spoons man
there were at least 10 waiters arnd
with the whole hse embellished with elaborate set up
the hotel style tables cutlery all
tables arnd the pool
and two tentages behind and infront
besides the catered hotel buffet and mini stalls
there was also a sushi guy from goodwood park hotel makin sushi
so yea imagine the stomach burstin feast i had
lol make up for the xmas dinner tt im missin at THE LINE
had a lil red wine and really nice choya too
the sad thing was tt my greatgrandma's age(90) is really takin a toll on her
yr after yr she's gettin so frail
she's really alert knows whats happenin and all
coz if u ask her, she'll tell u tt she has 49greatgrandchildren and counting
she can rmb who is who and my name!
but this yr she cant really walk,see and hear anymore
thruout the party she was in the room lyin on the bed
not much appetite to eat also
mom wanna brew bird's nest over this wk for her
ohwells at least she is well loved by all and has so many descendents

teehee when i came home, my sis was nice to me today
coz usually my mom does facial for me and i dun do anythin
juz nw my sis put facial mask for me and i juz lied on the bed
hahah how shiok is tt

considerin gg gym tml
but got a shoppin date with perry and gg for vip 0707 campfire at night
heh i gotta stop gg out so much!
but oops come to think of it i have a date with enshao on mon
and sentosa with bev and ash on wed
and my date with wenfang all.oh no im so dead
i still gotta rebond my hair next wk
so many things too lil time so screwed man

cardiolatino

2006-12-14T23:33:00.000+08:00

hmm actually i wanted to blog alot of things but den i forgot!
hahha ohwells too bad den i'll juz blog whatever i rmb

ok this wk there were two firsts at amore
after gg for so many pilates and kickboxin
i tried hip hop on mon and cardiolatino today!
oh gosh today was really really fun
cardiolatino is really like a dance
where there are steps from dances like cha cha, salsa, jive.
its really cool tho i cant really be like tt instructor who omg from the start to the end shake her butt like a pro.
i wanna go for it agn man haha tho i look stupid.
so yea today i spent like more den 4 hrs at amore.
lol did pilates,cardiolatino and i did gym for an hr
woohoo my mission to lose 4 more kg!

ok so after amore, perry and i went shoppin with debbie at far east
AND i found many pretty clothes/shoes tt i wanna buy!
shoe shoppin soon man perry!
i found my prefect heels!yellowish peep toe heels with flowery prints!
it better be there when i go get it or i'll cry.
hahah while walkin arnd
perry and i decided tt we should edit our wish list!
coz stupid manda forced us to anyhow come up with one!

ok den we went to the airport to pick sonn up!
welcome back dear!
hehheh more time spent with the ten nw.
i tink my whole hols the onli ppl i met is the ten

hmm i think ive been leadin a really peaceful life this yr
spending time with myself alot!haha bein low profile
and i tink i like this.lol its true tt sometimes spending time alone is gd.

here's a cheer for everyone!
oh my god
i think i need a manicure
the sun, i swear, is bleaching up my GORGEOUS hair!
red,blue,yellow,green
what's the colour of my teeth?
i dunno, i dont care
how should i do my hair?!
24,69
i dont know the score this time
go go, fight fight
gosh i hope i look alright!

2006-12-06T01:52:00.000+08:00

well more den half my hols has passed and i havent gotten much accomplished yet
juz been spendin time with the girls and of coz david
going for pilates,gym,tuition,springcleaned my room,finding myself a new eyecandy
besides tt ive juz been stayin home all day long
thinkin about everythin
not startin on work and revision
i swear i'll start soon
the impact of what i did last thurs night only began to sink in over the past few nights
lyin in bed thinkin and thinkin
i wish i could be a better person den wad i am
whats gonna happen to my life next i dunno
but its as tho a huge stone got thrown out of my heart
from deep within
will i really give up on certain things in my life including red cross which i hate and love simultaneously
if i was given another chance, would i have another kind of life
one where i dun have to feel as tho my heart could burst anytime
i could feel myself changin day by day
or mayb im juz hypnotisin myself
tellin myself what is right
i dun tink i have anymore strength left in me
how do i learn to trust and have faith
how can i not hurts others and myself
when will i stop acting so rashly and sayin things i dun mean to
what is it tt matters nw
what is right
what should i do
who am i

ikea meatballs and the designers show

2006-11-04T23:54:00.000+08:00

since i have nth better to do i shall update about friday!
a good and packed day for me
chi As was gd
after that to ikea with bel and leon
had my long craved swedish meatballs!
haha ate too much ok
shared meatballs,fish and chips PLUS apple pie(im tinkin too much of veekay's mom's apple pie) with bel
after tt went to fairfield for unit trg for hmm about 2hrs?
realised how different it is
but the best part of it was seein my dear WENFANG!
omg after a zillion years

so nw heres the bestest part of my day
after fairfield i rushed back home
threw on my pink princessy dress without any makeup whatsoever
den i was on my way to the designers show at expo!
lol fashion week(31st oct-5th nov)
the designers show is one of the main highlights of singapore fashion week 2006
got the invitation from my neighbour
ok so anyways the one tt i went for is a showcase from benno la mode
i didnt even noe there was sucha shop in heeren actually
reached there quite late
ate a lil finger food onli coz i was so damn bloated from lunch
i din get to drink champagne!hah
ok i was quite amazed tho seen before on tv
its like wow how did the models get changed so damn fast comin out one after another
so anyway the spring/summer 2007 collection looks good
40 outifts were showcased
theme was victorian style
i liked some of the dresses.feminine looks
alot of chiffon and stuff like tt
so yep gd day it was

hmm saturday
not a gd day i guess
looked forward to prestige but didnt get to watch it in the end
ohwells
had gastric the whole day
i guess from not eatin dinner the day before
and i ate like half of the shilin chicken i bought for lunch
felt like pukin after eatin tt
bad sign eh.havent had gastric for some time nw
ok shant comment on my bad and borin afternoon
mayb i'll find someone whos willing to accompany lalee tml for a movie
went to riverview hotel for buffet dinner with my family
managed to get food in me
but stomach felt queasy after that
yep ok sat was juz the buffet dinner
wasted the rest of my day
hope tml will be a happy day and a gd day for lalee!

saw something i shouldnt have today
helped me made up my mind further
soon i will do it
before 2007 comes along

hols stuff to do

2006-10-29T23:19:00.000+08:00

ok hi everyone im about to abandon my blog soon
haha.lazy to go do sth about the tagboard also
so ya im juz updatin for my own sake
haha list down the things i wanna do this hols!
i wanna go for notre dame!but its like too bloody ex!
phantom of the opera next yr with the girls!
ok actually its still gd coz theres no extra lessons for hols
but hmm holiday hw hahah

the cant waits!
ds to come back
sonn to come back
meet up with ALL the sisters!(christmas with them?)
ketsu's chalet!
JAPAN trip on 13th dec!

things to do for hols
project work:oral presentation dry runs
actual oral presentation
i&r
tt should be all left for pw eh den woohoo!!
chinese A level
holiday homework?
study of coz la: bind my lect notes for the different subjects!
no red cross for the hols
meetin up/shoppin trips with my loves(date vk!)
watch the prestige!mayb sinkin of japan?
do something with my hair
pilate class with perry and rosie!
yoga?
makin sure my diet succeeds!(i have to lose 5kg!!)
get my birkenstocks to come!hahah
watch my korean dramas!(which star are you from?)
finish readin my library books and return them
pack my bloody room
desperate shoppin for things i want!
go donate blood
collect my first aid cert
ds if ure readin this.pls get lotsa nougats and rock candies back for lalee ok!
get more marks&spencer candies to last the hols!
go rent high sch musical dvd
pay my mom 34bucks back asap!settle my debts hahah
go take passport size photos(time to stock up)
print my photos!
get a new pair of specs!

NEW and updated shopping list/wish list!!
(anyone wanna be nice to lalee?!)
pink&white nokia flip phone!7373 i tink
pink cybershot camera T10
new laptop
brown&white prints dress,nice tops:shop in ps
potpourri halter
topshop notebook/butterfly planner from borders
pink/dark brown blazer from zara
or dark brown blazer from mango
GORGEOUS red winter coat from zara!
fossil watch
addidas fruity fragance/silky girl perfume
copper x:odus ballet shimmer
heels from x:odus
red belt
nice flats/pumps/covered heels
pencil case
wallet (guess?)
sandals
skirts
fox top
clutchbag
pretty shades!
ipod
hairstyling kit
haviana flip flops
addidas jacket
brown/pink girl boxers

2006-10-01T23:21:00.000+08:00

ok er promos juz sucked
so yea
im screwed
so yea

hmm juz came back from my greatgrandma's bday
there was 11 tables altogether
it was really weird
us havin a bday function at the back of the restaurant while the rest of the restaurant was a weddin dinner gg on
ok 11 tables with some ppl absent
and not includin my step great grandpa's side of the family
i juz realised tt is how big my mom's side of the extended family is
no wonder i always forget wad to call my relatives when theres this kinda function
its like wahh easily over a hundred ppl

ok anyways im gonna reply everyones tags!
haha way overdue

denise:haha thanks tho i reply after its over.
yh:haha i doubt u'll see me next yr yh
bel:be prepared to lose me!awww haha
wf:haha my dear cant u tink of better ways to miss me
esther:u too ok gd luck for ur papers!
hidayah:lol how can i ever forget u.i'll link u soon.
pam:gal we're dead together.MATI
yi er: thanks!ure gonna be back soon!
jessie:love u gal!shoppin agn pls
lammyjie:haha its diff la.we were supposed to like wish u bon voyage or sth but i juz couldnt say anythin to him.oops.sry man
gela:haha ok peace between us!yayy ure gonna see me agn for lunch with our dear bimbo.remind me to bring ur stuff pls.
aly:heyy aly long time nvr see u here.haha

i pray you'll be our eyes, and watch us where we go,And help us to be wise, in times when we don't know.let this be our prayer, when we lose our way.lead us to a place, guide us with your grace.to a place where we'll be safe...

never on a sunday!

2006-09-17T15:39:00.000+08:00

Never on a Sunday when the church is full of people
And the bells are ringing in the steeple

Oh, you can kiss me on a Monday
A Monday, a Monday is very very good
Or you can kiss me on a Tuesday
A Tuesday, a Tuesday in fact I wish you would
Or you can kiss me on a Wednesday
A Thursday, a Friday, and Saturday is best
But never never on a Sunday
A Sunday, a Sunday 'cause that's my day of rest

Come anyday and you'll be my guest
Anyday you say but my day of rest
Just name the day that you like the best
Only stay away on my day of rest

You can kiss me on a cool day
A hot day, a wet day which ever one you choose
Or try to kiss me on a grey day
A May day, a pay day and see if I refuse
And you make it on a bleake day
A freak day, a week day why you can be my guest
But never never on a Sunday
A Sunday's the one day I need a day to rest

Just name the day that you like the best
Only stay away on my day of rest

Never on a Sunday when the church is full of people
And the bells are ringing in the steeple

Oh you can kiss me on a Monday
Monday, Monday's very good
Or you can kiss me on a Tuesday
Tuesday and I wish you would
Or you can kiss me on a Wednesday
Thursday, Friday and Saturday is best
But never never on a Sunday
Sunday, Sunday 'cause that's my day of rest

endless love

2006-09-14T16:37:00.000+08:00

nice rendition of endless love from mariah carey and luther vandross
My love
There's only you in my life
The only thing that's right
Oh yeah

My first love (yeah)
You're every breath that I take
You're every step I make

(Oh)
And I (And I)
I want to share
All my love with you, hey yeah
No one else will do
And your eyes (your eyes, your eyes)
They tell me how much you care
Oh, yes
You will always be
My endless love
Oh yeah

Two hearts
Two hearts that beat as one
Our lives have just begun
And forever (forever)
I'll hold you close in my arms
I can't resist your charms
No no no no (no no no)

And I
(And I)
I'd be a fool
For you, I'm sure
You know I don't mind (no, you know I don't mind)
'Cause baby you (baby, baby, baby, baby)
You mean the world to me, yeah
I know I've found in you
My endless love

Yeah (yeah)
Do do, do dooo, do do do

Whoa
And I
I'd play the fool
For you, (for you baby) I'm sure
That you know I don't mind (you know I don't mind)
Oh, yes
You'd be the only one
'Cause no-one can't deny
This love I have inside
And I'll give it all to you
My love (my love, my love)
My my my
My endless love

Mmm
My love

2006-09-11T22:23:00.000+08:00

helloo everyone
juz a quick post!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to LALA, YILIANG and WEILOONG!
and of coz to my two darlings out there, happy anniversary xp
lovelove

tag replies:
hadi:haha thanks smartyy
yh:woohoo go jon!
sheryl:huh wad ego hahah
wf:my dear wenfang!!xp

jonathan leong rocks my socks!

2006-09-06T23:44:00.000+08:00

omg i juz have to blog this ok!!!
im super duper high nw
jonathan leong rocks!
omg im in love with him!!ahhhh
hahah tonights sg idol performance was phenomenal!
judges choice haha i definitely agree with gurmit tt it should be judges choice every wk man
jon better get into final two and win this!omg!!!ahhh hes so charming!
and i tink zhang yaodong is hot too!

okok i shant sound so retarded
anyways dun tink im goin down to marina sq tml to support veeks and bev
im so sry bev!i noe i promised all these yrs to go see u dance hahah
GOOD LUCK alright
get into finals and i'll go i really really promise ok?
mnth of sep=quite alot of sep babies
birthday presents.ahhh
and wow suddenly so many taggers lol

tag replies:
leon:hmm surprised u even visit my blog hahah
ahlee:xp i noe tt!ure not too my dear!
ash:haha me too.smarty ass takin H3 eh siaosiao
hadi:wow how did u get here.haha lazy to link u.bleahh when i feel like it i will la
sheryl:haha its ok i noe u always tink of me still.
yh:haha ure smart enough la

loving someone hurts much more than being loved by someone

past few wks?

2006-09-04T20:27:00.000+08:00

actually i cant rmb wad has been happenin the past few wks
no rc activities these two mnths woohoo
feels great tt i dun feel like gg for anymore rc
haha tts fast eh.we'll see

cant rmb much so shall talk about more recent activities
err like juz last wk?
wed met up with evonne,joanne,my da jie!, yumin and others were there too
haha prob the last time im seein the ah beng (oops) until nov
cafe cartel with them
haha rosie finished exams on thurs
so we met up at night for devil wears prada and dinner at nydc
meetin up my darlings nvr fail to cheer me up xp
hah rmb nicky dun resort to eatin a cube of cheese!!
anyways there went my diet for the 2 days
ok sun(yest) met up with rosie agn in the evening to buy her makeup
done in about an hr den met david to buy some stuff
guys can be so uncreative
his was faster i tink
den dinner at src with my family
rosie came along too
my sis made a retarded comment when we sent rosie home
she said nw she noes why lil india is called lil india
its because they all litter (there were lotsa paper on the roads) lol
i laughed like mad

oh today had lessons in sch like for the next 2 days too
anways went for subway at fareast
and on the way home i met my darrliingg veekayy!!
mybeloved!haha miss tt gal to death
bev and her havin some dance competition at marina sq atrium this thurs semi finals
pls go support if u can!
gd luck my darlings!

last but not least HAPPY BIRTHDAY GILLIAN GOH YIMEI!

ok wont update agn for some time i guess
haha hate bloggin la
sucha bother
bye miss me everyone!rmb to love lalee more
show me some love!teehee

tag replies:
rosie:haha it does look like a mansion la
yh:lol i look dao issit
sheryl:bleahh, our date is overdueedd.birthday happy?
esther:thanks gal u too!teehee
aly:u den suck la come here and say i suck wth la u idiot ure supposed to love me lor
qx:thanks xp
evonne:done updatin,are u bringin our photo over?! so u can look at me and think of me more often!

sonn left for england

2006-08-20T21:58:00.000+08:00

hmm today sent sonn off at the airport in the mornin
shes the sixth person ive sent off this yr
year of farewell
well at least she'll be back more often den ds

after tt went to rosie's new hse at kembangan
goodness me
her hse is huge
looks like some big mansion from the outside
and her room is damn cool
so princessy!i like ahhhh
have a study date with her this wkends xp
lol my mom was askin me why are my frens so rich when they came to pick me up

tag replies:
veekay:its alright darling xp.we'll catch up soon,how does shoppin after promos sound?
gela:jiayoujiayou!
joanne:lol yes we should scold ahleena for neglectin the both of us
yh:haha yes smarty
enshao:u damn idiot hols so fast!rahhh

when will hurt turn into memories?

2006-08-13T16:46:00.000+08:00

this is way overdue
but yea rapture was damn gd last last fri
the scale of it made it grand i guess (at esplanade)
went for prob the last lgd we're gonna have for afew mnths
was only there for bout 1/2 hr
so ya sonn's leavin this comin sun
well, at least she'll get to come back more often den ds i tink

hmm nth much to blog about actually
nat camp has come and passed

'hurt will turn into memories in time to come'

thanks to all who has been my regular taggers.haha
tag replies:
yh:hmm ur results arent tt bad ok
evonne MA'AM:haha u stay happy too coz u have me and joanne!why am i lucky?
joanne:xpxp i love you too!
enshao:mr yip ure the retard,anyhow call me retard bleahh
aly:are u back yet?!hahah i wan presents pls!
sheryl:lol who ask u nvr call me!i was tryin to find u coz i saw caroline(is tt her name?)
taigong:lol yea
pam:xp secretive pam nowadays hahah
alllinaa teo:i thought u vanished alr la.nvr see u for any rc events this yr.hahah i missed you!

ptm

2006-07-31T20:37:00.000+08:00

haha this entry is gonna be a quick one
juz replyin my tags
anyway sat was cac cum parent teacher meetin
i din attend let my dad go himself
hmm lammyjie aly and pam came tellin me they all had bad comments
and i was tinkin die but guess wad
my home tutor told my dad im a good gal!hahahha
damn funny.thank you im guai
so yea dad din say anythin much la
except tt once agn juz like every other yr blame RED CROSS
haha lammyjie and pam dads too
aiya forever but den not tt bad this time so yea

oh ya went to the airport to send jo off on fri
hmm it was sad
cheer up gal! u noe who u are!

this friday is RAPTURE at esplanade!
yay cant wait to go watch veeks perform with perry
but got a feelin i'll be rushin like mad la
gotta do down to st margs before tt!hai
but nvm ill still try to be glam!hahah
and veeks im not unglam all the time ok u nehneh.
juz go and die
i wun give u flowers
ill give u shit

ok nw for tag replies
yh:thanks xp
sheryl:open ur eyes bigger im so big size how can dun see mad woman.im gg on a major diet hahahha.and my timetable sucks big time i finish at 4 almost everyday.so annoyin la pls
enshao:yesyes someday sry ive been neglectin u!hahha
lammyjie:ya la u cheaterbug no fair la.da muz give way to xiao de ok.bleahh
evonne MA'AMM:teehee i hate bloggin la so mah fan
dee:hey how can i not rmb u!and i realised u came back june hols issit?!nvr ask lalee out!hmpf.
gela:u better rmb pangsehin me forever!haha
aly:i'll be right here waitin for u!hahah two wks gone better buy sth back for me or u die!
bev:we're all too busy.sucks la pls.i love you beverley mathilda chow!
ds:hey my dear!sry la but lalee lazy and my life is not glam pls.its BORIN and yes we all miss u.come back soon!sonn's leavin!

evac modul

2006-07-16T22:31:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QIJUN!

heyy everyone
hah felt like updatin
hmm received all my results
dun even ask
gotta start workin damn hard or i'll not pass promos

ok anyways i skipped from oa workshop to evac workshop
so yea went for evac yest
next sat and sun will also be spent with evac workshop
lol shall juz stick with it and not go oa la
there'll always be a next time
evac was quite fun
teachin the cadets
altho like one/two methods im not very sure
but its ok ive got aly with me!haha
after tt went for dinner at j8 yoshi
some of them went over to wilson teo's place for the night
mx and aly too
i decided not to
so gela and i took a train to amk
den i had a long romantic walk with her bout 2bus stops down to her hse
talked about some stuff and she waited with me for my bus too
so yep tt was my sat!
gela be glad im so nice to u okok rmb!hahah

tag replies:
qj:siaosiao la u
rosie:yepyep.rmb to save up for another shoppin spree on our way!
bev:yes mom.hahahah
yh:i did terribly
enshao:YIP ENSHAO u abit lag onli ar!my bday like more den a mnth ago can
gela: x))!

potluck and SHOPPING

2006-07-09T22:28:00.000+08:00

hmm jing da told me rosemary's on tv!
i shall go observe these few days haha

anyway have been too lazy to update
so yea the whole hols juz passed like tt
there was stayovers,parties,outings with diff grps of ppl and yadayada
i'll post pics for crd/syf up soon i promise.
and den there was screwed up mid yrs
results comin out soon oh no
im dead totally.

hmm ok anyway fri went for dinner with denisealypamjasonleon
haha ok i din eat
i was havin a fat day so yea
aly brought us to some 'romantic' place after tt
we sat there talkin and had to run to dhoby gaut station in case we couldnt board our last trains.

yest i had a GD day of shoppin with my darling roseann yeo!
ok we met up with davidclaireperrynickymandasonn too
BUT rosie and i concluded shoppin shouldnt be with so many ppl
we ended up waitin here and there for each other so ya
din start shoppin until they left
rosie and i shopped from about 4 till 7
woohoo durin which i spent about 150bucks?
bought a pair of brown converse,ripples flipflops,collage blazer,white musk body mist,abercombie shirt and some other small stuff like eyedrops all
yayy so happy i finally went great singapore sale
haha esp since i havent shopped properly for DAMN LONG!
but den agn due to time wasted,i din get to shop for everythin i wanted
things i din get to buy/do:
pencil case
wallet
heels
bag
nice clips
clothes
make up
print photos
polish my rings
tts about it i guess cant rmb anythin else
hmm actually i saw a nice wallet at guess?
but den the inside is disgustin material so yea rosie told me not to get it

after tt i went for potluck at wilson.t's hse
hmm sth damn EMBARRASSIN happened to me there
for those who dun know,gd for u
i can juz dig a hole and hide
nw my legs and hips have brusies all over
hahah pam juz sent me a pic which i can blackmail stephen the old man with
yayy!thanks
hmm ok im screwed havent done alot of things so ya
bye all,till the next post haha

sry to all for not replyin to tags promptly im a lazy gal.bleahh

2006-06-21T23:47:00.000+08:00

ok tts it
i swear blogger hates me ok!
i blogged two times alr and both times got deleted
im not gonna try anymore so irritatin typed one whole long entry and nth comes out.SUCKS

so yea wilson brose jason qx lx denise came to stayover yest after crd!
ok not gonna cont or i'll scream

stayover at my hse

2006-06-21T23:20:00.000+08:00

my bday and syf fad

2006-06-12T00:09:00.000+08:00

hmm yest was my sweet seventeen!!
thanks to all who rmbed and wished me!
sry if i din reply some of u,i was alr aslp by the time u msged me

thetenofthem:perrynickydavidjessiemandarosiealiciasonnclaireds
lammyjie,denise,qingxiang,esther,leon,char,jingda,ash,aly,wenfang,
mx,pam,joanma'am,sheryl,foxy,lindi,terri,jason,janice,rosemary,
lixuan,veekay,hongteck,ambrose,yuanhao,bev,angela,brendan,wilson

thanks to all these ppl!xpxp
sry if i left anyone's name out.

hmm ok yest went for syf fad.
haha yesyes on my bday.
thanks for not pangsehin me gela!teehee
yest was a chaotic and TIRING duty!my goodness
the record no of casualties for the duties ive gone to so far
total no at the end of the duty for our rc side was 105!!!
imagine.dun wanna elaborate further bout yest.too much details
juz told pam the whole story over 1 hr 22mins of everythin tt happened yest
woohoo cant believe i have tt patience.
i got sunburnt.hai i really should rmb to put sunblock every duty!
ohwells cant avoid tt jab tt my doc gives me everytime i go for my appt
came home felt so hot like feverish type of hot from all the heat i was under durin duty till this mornin
went for LUNCH with them at ps pastamania(coz of gela) at 4!
by the time we were done with lunch others were gettin ready for dinner.lol
anyways the contingent trainers went swensons
and sth funny happened there.go ask denise!haha the main character
we went to watch the omen after tt,the theatre was like a freezer my goodness
and den yea home i went
once i reached home,i juz conked out on my bed
sry my dear david!hahah all alone after claire left eh.

today went to my aunt's hse and had a belated bday celebration there
with all my cousins and relatives
big feast for dinner.
and my mom bought an ice cream cake!woohoo
got a billabong cap and angbao. x))

ok i tink tts bout all for this entry.
so tired from all the typin
haha not bad alr managed to get this entry up
so yea till the next time everyone.
loads of love!

2006-06-05T01:46:00.000+08:00

thanks everyone who tagged
sry for not replyin ur tags for so long
but yea thanks for ur concern i'll be fine dun worry
the old lalee will be back soon.x)
i wun be bloggin anytime soon i guess
too much on my mind
perry:yea welcome ur performance was great.enjoyed the day out
ds:haha surprise comin ur way.wheres my letter huh u nehneh.bleahh
manda:i'll miss u too and dun be an idiot.haha

give up lalee

2006-05-26T00:36:00.000+08:00

recieving news i never wanted to know from someone else hasnt been easy
do u know?
the pain,hurt,loss,longing,memory,good old times and all the tears i shed
i wanna do away with all that
i made too many wrong choices the past 1yr
i hate livin with so many regrets
i hate that u make me regret knowin u the past few wks
i hate that u make me regret tellin u everythin
i hate that u made me become who i am nw
i hate that fear u created in me
i hate that u make me think bad thoughts,
things that i never wanna do with my life
i hate missin you by my side
i hate how im standin behind u lookin on and hopin
i hate that u were a part of my life once
i hate how u share and are in parts of my memories
i hate how u make me wanna hate u for the rest of my life
i hate how everythin reminds me of u
i hate how my tears fall because of u
i hate livin the way i do nw
i hate how i ignore the lil pleas to give up and get a hold on myself at the back of my head everyday
i hate myself
i guess ive been livin in delusion for too long a time
its time to wake up lalee
will i really be fine if i keep tellin myself that?

u and chanel

2006-05-21T21:11:00.000+08:00

the past wk has been hectic i tink
tests and all tt
felt as tho i did alot of work?haha
so yea did nth much the past wk
come home after sch almost everyday

yest went to do fad for syf at guangyang in the mornin
we learnt some things from alvin sir agn
lol nth better to do wad juz sit there pack the box of supplies
so he taught us how to take blood pressure all
bio lesson man lol
after duty went to j8 to eat pastamania with aly pam mx gela
after eatin tt, the whole day i felt nauseous
but mayb i was juz too tired
coz slept at 4am the night before watchin vcd
i went off after pastamania to meet david terri and tongtong in town
went pepperlunch with them
made me feel even more nauseous
den loitered arnd town the whole afternoon with them
they went to play pool at lucky plaza
i watched was too slpy
den after they all went off
i had nowhere to go lol
whole family at choa chu kang so cannot go home
in the end went to bedok macs to meet the ulp trainers
din eat dinner coz i was still feelin nauseous
at macs with them till bout 11
din do anythin juz sit there listen to them talk
and the more i sat the more i felt like wantin to vomit
was juz damn uncomfortable
den i sat at aljunied mrt for quite long waitin for my parents to come fetch me from cck!
my gosh i wait until i fell aslp there
haha later kena kidnapped
so yea when i came home
i juz slpt right way once my head hit my pillow
spt till 1pm today lol
ok tt was my borin wk!
till the next time

tag replies:
rosie:lol tt wasnt my fault ok darlingg.it was david who wanted to go esprit and zara first.i tink hes been hangin out with us too much.hes a metro.wana shop everytime.haha
yh:yeayea watever yh.hahaha
bev:sry dear had tuition ps u.i love you too.
perry:haha i decided im gonna go on a diet!so remind me next time i shouldnt eat so much!
brose:ok sure when im in the mood to.
wf: xp thanks for always rememberin me fangfang and puttin me right at the top of ur miss list!
jo:yes momojojo?!hahah.ask tt bev to return me pic man
pam:u siao ar.lol

you made me realised alot of things the past 2yrs1mnth
happiness comes with fate
and love comes with that too
but once its lost
i cant never find it back no matter what
im a joke aint it
i gave up our love
but up to this moment i have never gave up that lil impossible hope in me
you said once that only i will have the other half of your heart
that speaks for only me now
but i wont be that thick skinned so dont you worry
the tears i shed for the past 1yr5days left me with nothing much but fear
holding on has been a VERY big mistake
too big a mistake i feel as though i could collapse anytime

sometimes is not the holding on that matters, it's the letting go that counts. don't live in the past. leave the past in your memories, locked in your heart, because these memories are worth keeping. --read this at someone's blog.

gary and siew pheng's wedding!

2006-05-14T22:07:00.000+08:00

thurs we had sports carnival at ccab!
no lessons day so of coz lalee's happy!
our cls shirt was nicenice!
1T33 won second overall!first for netball!
i din take part
i juz sat there and get burnt lol
the sun made me tired tho serious
after sports carnival went to gomez's hse with half the cls
sry claire din go down and watch ur match
went heartland mall's cold storage to get food
after eatin at her hse
they went to play badminton till like 7
i din play.went home to slp arnd 4

vesak day(fri) went out with ex teetenners
david came along to be extra lol
oh and i found out after 17yrs of my life tt its a buddhist thing not an indian thing oops unknowledable lalee haha
so yea went sakae sushi to have lunch with them!nice seein rose!
david and i went to meet the two smallies after tt at far east!
see im so nice it was drizzling ok and i walked there to meet y'all
rosie and jessie say thank you!bleahh
i bought a black choker while jessie chose her earrings!
woohoo i love the choker.wore it today!
david bought a pair of earrings too for *ahem*
den followed jessie to pick her bag for like one trillion yrs
my gosh the gal is so indecisive.haha
and i had gelare ice cream.sinful for my diet
claire and perry came after tt
had swensens for dinner with them
the whole's day meals cost half my wallet's bills!
a great day with my absolute loves
need i say more?

yest went for linkamania briefin at evergreen sec
im a mentor so finished much earlier
pam gela lammyjie and i stayed ard and had free lunch
den decided to go off first
after much deliberation at woodlands
we went to amk's kbox!
jason and qx came to join us
lol tt totally cost my whole wallet coz i paid for pam and gela too
nw my wallet left with less den 10bucks from my spendthrift ways
so anyways third time at kbox
and guess how long i stayed there
i was there for 7 HOURS mind u
i nearly freezed to death inside
i bet we sang half the songs there is.lol
pam gela lammyjie left one by one!leave me alone with jason and qx
had a pretty embarrassin moment but ohwells
sry all and thanks pam!
uncontrollable me
was juz a lil down the past few days but i guess im alright for nw

today was the MOST MOST excitin day!
finally gary kor's and siew pheng jie's wedding!
lol they finally held their weddin lunch 2 yrs after their ROM
i din go down in the mornin with gary kor to pick up the bride
onli went for the lunch at M hotel
zao shen gui zi!!
im so happy for them!but den agn weddings do make me feel melancholy as well
anyways saw jingyi jie my god shes alr 6mnths pregnant but cannot tell at all and she could still wear evenin gown
skinny freak la she.
nw tt they're all married
the hse will always be so quiet everytime i go visit my nanny
anyways gary kor was so handsome today!
took an individual pic with him before the lunch started
lol he and ah cong kor like to emphasize on the fact tt they watched me grow up.
he asked me how old i am alr
den he say legal alr dun 'luan luan lai' wth man
but i love him all the same!lol
tts all for nw.

I wanna make you smile
whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
Oh, all i wanna do, is grow old with you
I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh, it could be so nice, growin' old with you

I'll miss you, kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
need you, feed you
I'll even let you hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
Oh I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

tag replies:
rosie:rahh both of u suck stop takin unglam pics of lalee!!!i dun wanna be unglam ok!
david: stop callin urself shortie u idiot.i slap u ar.i wasnt high ok btw!
qx:helloo hah im too lazy to link u lx all la.wait until i got mood.haha
ds: ok darrlingg.waitin for u to come back!
yh: teehee my cls rocks la.
pam:ahhh, hwhw pam.lol see ya
gela:yeayea gela.blog bout lalee and 10th june la!haha i noe ure happy to see me every sat. *winks*

no matter what

2006-05-11T00:19:00.000+08:00

No matter what they tell us
No matter what they do
No matter what they teach us
What we believe is true

No matter what they call us
However they attack
No matter where they take us
We'll find our own way back

I can't deny what I believe
I can't be what I'm not
I know I love forever
I know no matter what

If only tears were laughter
If only night was day
If only prayers were answered
Then we would hear God say

No matter what they tell you
No matter what they do
No matter what they teach you
What you believe is true

And I will keep you safe and strong
And sheltered from the storm
No matter where it's barren
Our dream is being born

No matter who they follow
No matter where they lead
No matter how they judge us
I'll be everyone you need

No matter if the sun don't shine
Or if the skies are blue
No matter what the ending
My life began with you

I can't deny what I believe
I can't be what I'm not
I know this love's forever
That's all that matter's now
No matter what

(no, no matter)
No, no matter what
(no, no matter)
No, no matter what
I know no matter, thats all that matters to me
No, no matter what
I know no matter, thats all that matters to me
No, no matter what
I know no matter, thats all that matters to me
No, no matter what
I know no matter, thats all that matters to me
No, no matter what
I know no matter what, thats all that matters to me
No, no matter what
I know no matter what,
Thats all that matters to me

cls bbq

2006-05-07T23:54:00.000+08:00

lets start from tues!
i FINALLY went to the tailor's with my mom
got her to make my skirt looser and abit shorter.
yay nw i wun need to suffocate to death the next fad.lol

wed went out with darrling char weiyun and gela!!!
char is still ever so skinny!!and still as pretty of coz.haha
had fun with them!watched mission impossible!

thurs aly pam and i went to j8 after sch
met up with jason qx lx hongyi
had cartel dinner
my gosh tt drained my wallet for the wk
anyhow it was nice sittin there talkin crap with them
i left at bout 10
jason and qx like ate sth wrong
they couldnt stop talkin the whole time lol

sat!
had crd meetin with vivian maam at millenia walk's tcc
the meetin started at like 3 coz of some dumbdumbs haha
jason gela pam left hse earlier den me somemore!
but they got lost and waited for so many ppl
so the whole gang of them finally arrived after a damn long time
by then i was freezin my butt off in tcc
went candy empire after meetin!!
woohoo i bought nougat!
ps:jason rmb to be more GENTLEMAN!bleahh fatty
walked arnd for abit at suntec
den they all went mad and RAN all the way back to cityhall station
me and pam nearly died tryin to catch up with them!
after which pam and i headed to david's hse for cls bbq!
haha din wanna go actually but cannot pangseh pam
slpt for awhile before the other guys came
surprisingly almost the whole cls came!
ate quite alot but tt was my first meal of the day so..
had bacardi and they thot i was high? LOL
after tt went upstairs and sat arnd playin cards and ps2
i stoned.took some pics read cleo
i was quite tired but guess wad i left his hse at bout 12.30am!
everyone was like gone at bout 11
i was the last one to go la
juz coz my dad tinks the pollin results is more impt den me!
and omg i found so many unglam pics of myself on his com!
eeeeks muz be the doings of either nicky or rosie!
ok tt sums up my wk

tag replies:
yh:haha muz study!pls remind me too when u see me.xp anyways linkamania's comin up we can have fun with the kids!!
xuan:xpxp hellooo!!

stayover at sonn's

2006-05-01T22:39:00.000+08:00

ohh i forgot to add tt i went ac to meet manda all on thurs!!
we had dinner at holland v's crystal jade
we werent really watchin the rugby match
vandalisin each other's notebks more like it.haha
had a happy happy wkend!!
had a belated bday party for sonn
a bbq plus stayover!!
a pity jessie and alicia couldnt stay over
anyways we called ds in aussie
each of us got a turn talkin to her!
we miss u ds!
we'll be waitin for u to come back soon x))
we were in the pool for like afew hrs.
by the time we got out and bathed
i was soo slpy
i slept earlier den them
but kept wakin up and talkin to them in between lol
so yep anyways had great food the whole night and for breakfast too
we had fun scopin the watermelon bits especially!
i love all of them!!
aww back to sch agn tml
ohoh another highlight for this wk!!!
CHAR's BACK IN SPORE!!
four of us are gonna meet on wed!(hopefully gela can make it)
but its so sad shes onli back for a wk!
flyin back to china agn this fri la.
nvm we'll make the best of wed!

i havent worn my retainers for damn long
finally decided to wear it and its so freakin painful my god

tag replies:
evonne:x))
yh:diaoo i hate to shout la.haha
gela:helloo darlingg!!

crd meetin

2006-04-30T00:38:00.000+08:00

hmm spent my whole day out agn today
met up with the rest of crd comm for lunch first
we were late
ok at least we thought we were
so like prac 'ran' there after we ate
but ended up noone there to chair the meetin -_-
miscommunication lol
so yea we called john sir down coz there were like 13 of us there lol
so yea after tt gan tempted us
so gela pam and me went to kbox with gan hongyi denise lixuan and qingxiang
stayed ther e till 9pm.4hrs of kbox!
dinner at yoshi after tt
den stayed at the arcade for awhile and decided to come home
but had fun today with them!
cant wait for more fun with sonn all tml!includin our 11th sister!
i realised im onli truely happy when im with y'all too rosie!
and the rc ppl!.ij rule!

tag replies:
brose:haha also not ur fault wad is i ownself nvr eat the skirt really buay tahan la but dun worry im gonna change it haha
evonne: xp yes ah ma chua.haha are u very amused by aly all.i tink u are.
yh:haha sry i keep forgettin ill try to rmb
ds:haha lalee hasnt been studyin man

npdp fad

2006-04-23T17:07:00.000+08:00

went for npcc first aid duty yest with the usual gang
first time wearin the vi uniform
hmm i tink we all look quite nice in it
except that my uniform totally sucks
the tailor sucks eeyer
my uniform is the worst of the lot
she made mine so bloody high up its like above my belly button
and its damn long tooo
but tts not the worst part
she made it so freakiin tight tt i cant eat if i wear the skirt
so tt resulted in me gg empty stomach
but ate one burger npcc provided arnd 4+
was havin gastric alr
oh and the top she made for all of us
my gosh the sleeves so big like wayang liddat
the shoulders there so much space
its quite loose too
but den i guess the top is fine with me la at least we can breathe in it
but im gonna call her and make her redo my skirt like helloo how am i gonna survive in it for the many mnths to come

hmm fad was quite fun
coz this time i was at observation post with mx aly and lammyjie
wahahah so din do any first aid the whole day
juz stand there and look out for casualties
but even then i couldnt walk after the whole event ended
my right foot had two big blisters at the back
i was holdin on to denise the whole time while we walked to the bus
took the small bus back to hq first with denise and some other ppl
den all of us went to tcc at clarke quay
we occupied half the space in tcc la my gosh
came back at 12+
was so tired i slept till 1 today.lol

till the next time
miss me

photos links

2006-04-20T23:03:00.000+08:00

err im too lazy to blog la so yea
anyway my life so borin so shall save y'all from the details hahah
hmmm while i was sick at home last wk
i finally decided to take out my cam and start uploadin 4mnths worth of pics
like more den 300
so yep heres 7albums for y'all to slowly view till u happy
some pics are still not uploaded in but yea its afew here and there onli
enjoy!(hahhha i noe y'all wanna see my face xp)

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2107390162
CJ first 2 mnths

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2107385059
last day of term 1

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2107386284
outings with 1T10

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2107367902
orientation 2

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2107361553
rcy events 06`

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2107198635
surf and sweat

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2107388174
farewells at the airport

tag replies
perry/manda: i missed u too darlinggs.see y'all soon yea
brose:wads wols ar?
evonne:xp yep i will try not to.thanks for ur concern!heehee
yh:haahhahaha im in bridge nw.LOL
gela:u love me wad dun u.so u should blog bout me too.arent u happy ure gonna see me agn in a day's time.xp
jasmine:i dun have fiona xie la alamak
pet goh:thanks!
ds:i love you too ds.we miss u very much.u take care over in aussie too yea.dun quarrel too much with ur parents and all.
fernie:im not in nexus la lol.
rosie:glad u enjoyed my company.wahahha.lovee
pam:im relaxed dun worry.teehee

2006-04-10T18:55:00.000+08:00

hmm havent blogged in a long time
my life basically for the past two wkends has been
sat red cross
sun slp whole day
hahaha.sch is gettin too mundane for me
hw everyday test every nw and then
its juz so urghh
i long for a break everyday
and i go to sch to look forward to the end of sch
i really dun wanna join any internal cca!
im sad for givin up council
but at least i noe i made the right choice in not applyin
coz my time management skills sucks,i would juz end up killin myself
im juz so mentally drained from everythin
tt i cant even be bothered to study most of the time when i come home
i juz plopped on the bed
the timetable juz sucks.sch hrs are so darn freakin long
so diff from sec sch.half the day in sch half the day in bed nw
i juz recovered from my fever and sore throat last wk
but i got my sore throat back after wrcd

been feelin quite emo the past few wks
i juz dun feel like talkin some of the times to some ppl
and im sorry esp to pam
coz she gets the brunt of my tyrantness
i pmsed like most of last wk
screamed and shout at her
hope ill get to see all 8 of them this sun at nicky's

List 10 things you want to say to people but know you never will
Don't say who they are---
1. i'm sorry
2. i still love you as much as i ever had
3. all of you mean alot to me!
4. it hurts me alot when i hear things about you from ppl
5. i tried every means to keep you close
6. i'm sorry we drifted apart over the years
7. i hope our friendship would remain for as long as can be
8. i don't ever want any of you to leave me
9. i hate how you're always on my mind
10. i hate how i can't say all these things to you

tag replies:
bev: u den rebel la is i suay ok.bleahh
david: stop tryin to rhyme like chan yong jie.mad ppl.
brose:not funny ok.bleahh.next time we can all go home tgt!xp
yh:yesyes yh.i noe u love sayin baris sediya,i cant stand sch la.lol
terri: thanks! xp
pam/lammyjie/gela
tricia:changed xp
enshao: u take care too!did u get into any poly?!yes linked u
lixuan:i was so bored alone!hahah.links call me auntie leh im so sad.
sheryl:yea like FINALLY!
dee:yes of coz my dear i rmb u!xp.next time u come back to spore u muz rmb to call all of us out yea.mwahh
ds:hey why always tink of my blonde moments.juz tink of me its enough.lol.
denise:see i updated!heehee

alicia's belated bday lunch

2006-03-26T23:00:00.000+08:00

hmm i cant rmb wad i did for this wk but yea its juz been hectic as well
thurs and fri came straight home after skool was like too tired so come home slp!
oh i got caught for short skirt durin assembly by bro paul on fri
freakin pissed me off like wtf man.rahhh
so bloody irritatin pls
ok enough bout tt and on to some excitin stuff

yest went to guangyang sec for fd accred as well as poc!
woohoo we've all fnally pulled thru together and passed vip
nw we're all acos officially.yeahh
i hope the 7 of us will remain gd frens in our upcomin new chap of red cross life
nw im tinkin mayb i shouldnt run for council afterall if i wanna commit myself to red cross den go join some slacker cca in school
haii school's seriously sucha headache pls
hate it to death
so anyways after tt we waited in the school for like damn long for the trainers!
went to secret recipe in the end to have lunch
was with alpha and some other trainers
den on to haagen dazs for melon fruits medley
with jason stephen qijun weishan and ruixian
the whole day spent with them
sit eat talk tts all we did such pigs but it was quite fun lol
spent like 40bucks altogether.oh man at the rate im spendin my money this whole wk ill run out of money real soon.my savings are depletin at an amazingly speedlight pace.

today went to balcony at heeren to celebrate alicia's bday!
the place is quite nice and their service is gd too!
manda's mom gave us a treat so nice!
i walked all the way from cityhall to bakerzin at millenia walk den back agn to collect alicia's cake before tt!i was like for like 1hr++
walked so long i nearly died.
took nicenice photos there and i stole perry's gorgeous pink shades for awhile
walked arnd a lil with claire roseann jessie alicia
den went to holland v to take passport size pic
lol i took like damn alot of times with my mom
we keep sayin not nice take agn!
den elleen helped my mom to erase her wrinkles and touch up here and there
cheater la she dun wanna admit shes old.LOL

hate school leh dun wana go tml man rahhh

holland v sure brings back memories.
i hope ur cadets recover asap.

march hols

2006-03-20T23:30:00.000+08:00

ok havent got the time to blog here for a long while
hmm march hols passed real quickly for me
not enough time man!
anyways went for vip camp from the first day of hols!
sat to tues
we onli got released at bout 6 on tues,went for dinner with gela and some other ppl from the camp at bedok macs
overall the camp was quite gd i guess.
not as tough as i expected
but nonetheless i learnt sth outta it
though i tink on the third and last day i was abit gone alrd
i juz went arnd cleanin up the kitchen all alone
coz when im tired i hate openin my mouth to talk
which is why im sure the noise level goes down with my quietness lol
and i prefer to be left alone
and also some other factors contributed

wed met up with my darlinggs for LGD2!!
had two glasses of nicenice pimms sonn made for me!
a pity jessie and i couldnt stay overnight at sonn's place
missed out on all the gossip!oh no
perry lum u had better update me okok.

thurs there was vip 06/06 sentosa gatherin
but i was too lazy to go sentosa den head to pasir ris
so i headed straight to ian's chalet in the mornin
we went cycling all
and i had fun bbqin at night!xp

fri supposedly had ndp 04' gatherin
but thanks to lindi's smartness
onli me and enshao turned up
the rest pangsehed her
hmm i had fun catchin up with enshao in the mornin
we went to watch dorm with lindi
den walked all the way to tangs to get my ice cream treat from him
met terri,accompanied him to taka seoul gardens
terri and i later ended up havin dinner there too
perry nicky joyce and alot others were also there
terri and i two solitary ppl bbqin so damn gay and suay our table beside enshao's cls like wth
we made david come and he made a stupid comment
he said terri and i are too brokeback so he come and seal back -__-
but it was funfunfun!
and i took retarded pics with nicky and perry!

hmm those three days after camp always reached home after 11
mainly because i didnt dare to ask if i can stayover so juz go home late hah
spent the whole of my last two days of hols at home
juz slacked arnd did nth

first day of skool today was fine i guess
the uniform part was weird
couldnt get used to the look in the mirror in the mornin
cls was ok
went out to watch date movie with them after skool
oh pam and i we're like fated to be with each other or sth lol
sec3&4 same cls and same cca,camps we're like always same grp too
and nw im gonna be in the same cls as her agn for the next 2 yrs
and we juz joined vip together and she was in my grp too like wahhh
ok nth much to comment on skool so yea gotta run
byyee i noe my post is damn borin so if ure still readin congrats

tag replies:
perry,roseann,nicky,sonn,manda,alicia,jessie,claire,ds:i love all of you!!xpxp
pam:thanks pam
yuanhao:haha i tink i might join hl afterall tt is if i passed hahahha.and thanks for ur encouragements!
minser:yea linked u long time ago
gela:great time with all 6 of u durin vip camp dearie!take care too and dun put ur energy onto tt person.ahha.lol thanks for listenin to me tt night yea gal u rock!xpxp.
sandra:bleahhh
ky:aiya lazy man.lol why change agn u
alina:yes alina teo hua yi!long time nvr see u!and u nvr come talk to lalee!
khooyu:ar wad bobomania.so smart find my blog.tsktsk are u scandalous.haha
azrin:lol how come u didnt join!!!

cls posting

2006-03-08T23:27:00.000+08:00

hmm got our cls posting today
i got into T11
i was damn upset,cried till my eyes are so swollen nw
hai but yea i dun mind the ppl in T11 nw
there's martina sondra jas christian alson all
im juz upset coz im still in arts
when last night i found out tt i had to do sci stream to take up physiotherapy in nyp after jc
the whole night i was ponderin whether i should try appealin or give up physio and juz take arts
but today when i found out i was in T11,i couldnt help but cried
it juz helped me confirm tt i should go with my heart and try my best to get into sci and not give up on physio
thanks to all who tried to console me
its so embarrassin come to tink of it
havin so many ppl see me cry
nw im juz so anxious whether i can get into T33
there's all the previous T10ers in there
i wanna be with them too
pls help me someone
everyone pray for me pls.
i juz hope this will go well for me
so i can have a happy jc life with the cls at least
or my life would really be so screwed up
me bein so confused at this pt of my life
dunno wad cca to join
my cls is screwed up
and vip isnt really workin out for me
the department tt i wanna join after passin vip aint gg well either

O2 first day in cj

2006-03-06T22:27:00.000+08:00

hmm first day of O2 was quite ok
with this ig 5 its better den my first day with ig21
theres gareth and poh chiat with me
and i made new frens
david nathan jocelyn and err the rest
alson is in cj!
haha so coincidentally he was in terri's cls in pj
nw in cj hes most likely gonna be in my cls
nathan too haha these are all the new additions to the pathetic 3 fairsians from first intake
after skool went to town with the sji guys jas david
walked arnd town with the sji guys for quite long
stopped and walked to talk to ppl along the way
walked back to far east gelare with ian
sat there talked rubbish with him and also jason as well as his grp of frens
crenshaw tried showin more magic tricks but with ian arnd it nvr succeeds

my soft spot for u has alrd been frozen

first three mnths in cjc

2006-03-05T23:37:00.000+08:00

hmm havent updated in a longlong time
mainly its coz ive been real busy these few weeks
piles of hw waitin for me to touch but nvr did
and the vip stuff to do
alot of things have happened in the past few weeks

firstly i would like to say for the two contact sessions i had for vip
i muz say i learnt a few things from it
shirley maam is a great person tt ive learnt sth from
shes not afraid to voice out her opinions
shes assertive yet not unreasonable
shes very gd at ratiionalisin her arguements
her response and reaction time is very fast
and many many more to come
i look at her and i find a kind of encouragement
where it helps me to be more confident of myself
the way i wanna present myself to others

the past few weeks have been really great with 1T1o
havent studied for the past 8 weeks after orientation1
i muz really catch up in my work durin the one wk march hols
ive had alot of fun with 1T1o
i wanna thank esp foxy rose and jas for the fun times we had tgt
of coz not forgettin also the rest of 1T1o and others in cj that were part of my life for the past 8wks
had my first ice skatin experience with them after havin been on this planet for 17yrs
the pool and everythin else
i really hope that the cls remains the same after orientation2
ill miss each and everyone of the teeteners
1T1o has been really special
and ill miss those leavin cj alot
i love them all
i have like more den 200pics in my camera of the first three mnths waitin to be uploaded!ahhh

hmm last thurs met up with my darlinngs with sonn's performance
david came along with us
i really miss them
it was sucha wonderful night
juz the 9 of us agn havin our xiao long baos!
the past 2wks has been really hard
sometimes i juz miss ij and the 9 of them so damn muchh
i miss the recesses we had tgt,the hotel stays and everythin else
and suddenly i juz felt estranged from T1o
mayb its juz me but i cant help the feelin inside me
i feel so lost sometimes and alone.
vip makes it worse
and bein hostile towards him makes me really sad inside
but i noe its a right decision
its all these lil things tt's been weighin me down
nw tt orientation2 has arrived,i hope it would lift tt heavy weight in me
i hate jc life nw i juz wanna go back to bein a small kid agn
stayin in cj tho is an advantage i guess
at least there's still bev there for me
there's juz too many things to blog about but im gonna end off here.

tag replies:
christy: xpxp
sandra:yes hii mrs tan oops
jo: haha i noe u miss me
kel: u too!hugg--
weiyun: i cant wait for our outin to come ok my dear gal
jas: lalee loves u
pam: rahhh anyhow call u idiot
yuanhao: yep i will hang in there. duno wad department should i join
sondra: k dear
jessie: im so happy ure comin over to cj jessie!
petrina: yep see u
claire: ahhhhh x)
kann: haha see i updated!juz for u!haha

project runaways

2006-02-16T23:25:00.000+08:00

hmm 5th feb was surf and sweat!
sunburnt at sentosa whole day
had fun managed to stay dry
laughed at the tram uncle
den blahblahblah the wk passed quickly
11th feb sandra's party,her hse damn far!!
the guys tgt with lyn and meiqi squeezed in my car
and they gayed arnd,damn funny la
12th feb went to the airport to send lyn off
met up with foxy jas and david in town before tt
the handmade presents foxy and jas gave lyn were damn nice!

14th feb:hmm valentine's day holds an altogether different meaning agn this yr
it brings back memories as well as heartache
but it was fun exchangin presents with everyone in school!
the atmosphere is same as in ij!i nvr thought it would be so much similar
so many presents.thanks to all! xpxp
i hope my brownie didnt poison all of u.lol
went to sakae sushi with my darrlinggs for lunch buffet
haha u guys noe who u are.
had loads of fun with them
met up with terri first,saw weiloong dominic gareth sandra and many more ppl
terri was with mitch michyee and me!so cool rite.terri and 3miches haha
"dinner" with david tongtong terri and mich
wahah i got a pink rose!sheryl would die knowin tt.
she cant stand my pinkness oops
15th feb:its a great day!
i donated blood for the first time in my life!!woohoo
geraldine ma'am was there.hah she was quite shocked when i called her.
its a great feeling and to everyone out there its totally not painful
i cant believe i was scared before tt coz afew ppl told me needle damn big all tt.
foxy changed her application to cj first choice!xpxp
so anyways 14th and 15th were pretty exciting days!!
some ppl would noe wad im referrin to.HAHA
ok got nth much to add so yea tata till the next time i feel like bloggin!

tag replies:
sondra/claire:haha my secret not worth knowin wan la
angela:i love yihua!
ds:i miss u dearr!
taigong:haha i noe ure dyin for me to join hq la
foxy:ure my sweetie pie too!!
dommy:ill miss u alot so stop ponnin skool so i can see u more often neighbour!
haha
jas:haha yes i love u alot jas!i linked u longlong time ago alrd! x))

2006-02-05T00:36:00.000+08:00

hmm have been too lazy to blog
but yea i enjoy everyday the past few wks
out with ppl everyday and all
haha which is why i dun have time to blog
results out next wk
scared to death
anyways my batchmates have decided on one thing
we'll all go join vip,suffer and have fun together
its more meaningful this way
rather den havin to join urself
so yea we've managed to come to an agreement tt if everyone else joins we'll all join
which makes bout 10 of us
9 if pam really aint joinin
so yea tts the excitin news for nw
nth else much to say so yea bye ppl
too lazy and tired to elaborate on my cny and all

tag replies:
ds:i love you alot too!!!we'll be lookin forward to ur return in dec!
david:lol relax la u.no use gettin upset over tt kinda ppl
wf:of coz i always will im ur sunshine!!xpxp.
taigong&yuanhao!:lol read my post!!!
perry:haiya wads the pt when i can juz sit down and relax.wait for y'all to cook for me lol
cheng,denise:happy cny to y'all too.sry im abit laggin.hahaha
terri:yes small gal!haha
yuanhao:lol u dun fit the requirements meh?!go ask ur cls ppl to donate den lol bloodbank so much shortage of blood.

pre talentime,talentime,farewell party,cny shoppin!

2006-01-23T23:35:00.000+08:00

hmm the past wk has been quite a fun filled wk i tink
fri went for talentime briefin at hq
i made new frens tt night!
haha audrey whom i had nvr seen in cj prior to this
so anyways bein the kaypo i am
i stayed back to help them prepare stuff till 11+ tt night

sat went for council in the mornin for like err 1 hr?
lol so lame i noe.went listen to the talk when they start games i leave
wad crap eh.
quite a large no of ppl turned up its scary
how to run for elections man
and im surprised tt markqzl din go!
he look so council type.lol
so anyways rushed down to nyjc for talentime 06`
everyone so black,looked quite nice actually
all the pre event stuff yadayada
den commencement
i was in charge of the song cat so yea was sittin in LT3 the whole day
doin the sound for the skools
i muz say some skools really wowed me
didnt get to see the dances and dramas quite sad
so yea RGS got the challenge shield agn this yr
and err scgs ppl were cryin like mad
but i was quite hmm shocked when one of them(my batch) passed a rude comment to my face
its so unfair to say tt bout HQ ppl
oh i muz comment on ICE KACHANG
the grp song by regent sec.amin the lead singer
my goodness whenever hes arnd u'll laugh like mad
the performance was so cute!and creative tho i dunno if they copied it
post event after yadayada
lotsa propaganda by all of them
they always make me feel like joinin vip la but the other part of me doesnt wan to
so yea i have no idea how.ill decide when the time comes i guess

sun was sucha a fun fun day
threw ds her farewell party at my hse
we had eight course meal!
ate for like err 3hrs or sth
juz sat ate and ate and ate and talk and talk and talk
mouths juz couldnt stop
had seafood pasta,curry puffs,spring rolls,sweet and sour mushroom soup,salad,fruits,salmon,strawberry&marshmallow cake
hmm sonn cooked the salmon for us.delicious!i nvr eat salmon mind u.
perry made the strawberry marshmallow cake for us
so shiokkk la lunch!woohoo
my mom was commentin bout how come i cant cook like them.rahh
so yea it was a fun day chillin out with them
gave ds her presents all she cried
hmm we all got a sash each
i love the nine of them!!!!

today went cny shoppin at bout 5
shopped damn long with my mom
but in the end juz managed to buy a pair of urs black heels and topshop red top.
hai howhowhow.madness pls
i should have listened to advice and bought my cny stuff durin the hols
nw no time to do it la!seriously man.so dead.

tag replies:
mandi:ure so fickle minded la gal!
jerome: lol jerome jerome dun deny la!
dom:yea sure ure welcome!xpxp
claire: hiii
esmond: err none of us would open a fan club for u la.bleahh
taigong: xpxp of coz i noe u missed me wad.hahah
roseann: im not gonna see u anytime soon!oh nooooooo
wenfang: yesyesyes wf!of coz i do.i love you i miss you and i rmb you!anyways i passed ur presents to leon alrd! xpxp.i explained everythin to joanne so yea get it from leon ok!
perry:ure so retarded perry lam
gela: yea!hai char's leavin leh gela
ds: eh u idiot take my pink rubberband away from me when i specifically told u not to!rahhh u better bring or else ill die.

2006-01-17T23:14:00.000+08:00

ended school late yest
went to wheelock with ronald gareth claire jas jerome
we were sittin at the bistro beside borders
its so bloody ex pls.
the small slice of cake they ordered was like 6.5bucks
anyways attempted to do chem with them
i did one qn and spaced out lol
im still honeymoonin
stop it lalee!!!

went for odac mornin run today! xp
vk ive not been brainwashed haha
arent u proud im still survivin in odac!
today had a 'cls outing' agn after skool
with the usual grp of ppl
ian jas glenn foxy claire ronald david jerome
hmm jerome was with us for like 20mins or so onli la
lol stalked jerome when we reached far east
den waffled at gelare
david and glenn went to eat burger king/subway after tt
so yea the day was ok la
except for STUPID ESMOND HWEE ZHE KAI
stop irritatin me la ass!
no shamir and david alrd pls.
anyways after eatin and all the rest went home
david and i went to tongtong's hse
sat there for like 2hrs or so watchin two of them play pool
and talked talked talked till 8pm

anyways ive been elected to be econs rep
ironic coz i hate my econs teacher eeyer
im veryvery tired nw.my eyes are closin!!
so yea i guess ill not be touchin my econs hw
gdnite everyone.

tag replies:
terri: i love you too!! xpxp
claire: er ya hiii
mandi: im not mrs shamir la mrs jonathan lau!haha.yeahh odac!!
perry: bleahh im fit ok!hahaha.wad cca u join ar bimbo!!!!!!!
vk: xp wad bimbotic self.ure the one more like it.hahaha
esmond: im not mrs shamir or mrs david la u idiot!!!
taigong: i nvr ok!!im gg for talentime!
dee: yea ure welcome small gal of coz ure missed!

denise leavin

2006-01-15T00:52:00.000+08:00

fri went for odac trg for the first time
eco challenge!
out to dinner with them at tpc
played a damn sick game
marshmallows so gross la
and its so sweett!!!
anyways fri was denise's last day of skool!
she gave us a bottle each with candies
dee loves mich!
im sure gonna miss tt gal like damn alot la!
why is everyone gg to aussie!!!!whywhywhy!
we took pics and all

today went back to ij for their cca orientation
cheered abit for rc booth
veeks was there too!!omg!my gal!
sat arnd catch up with ppl see see looklook
den cabbed to town with rosie claire nat
but rosie left after thai express
i went to buy denise's chocz and rose before meetin her
and oops jerome jas xiaoan and lemo were there too
haha so yea i went off with them to monstercue
sat arnd rotrot waited for ian
met terri for awhile
see how pathetic my day was
haha wanderin soul drift from one place to another

cant go to the airport to send denise off later
its too early 10.15am
i wun be able to wake up and changi airport is too bloody far.
awwww

a perfect relationship is about compromising and not focusing on the flaws.

tag replies:
jo:yes of coz im havin fun in skool jo hahah
gela:hellooo yeah we're gonna be able to catch up on 21st jan! xp i noe ure damn excited to meet me ok.heehee
manda:is more like where are YOU!anyways u might be able to see me sometime in the wk la coz i gotta meet rosesand!otherwise it'll be on our next outin together which is like soon.and i noe one day is too long coz im very impt in ur life. xp!
mandi: have u made up ur mind bout wad cca u joinin?!!

orientation 1 ended!

2006-01-11T22:52:00.000+08:00

mon was finale night!
hmm it was quite a fun day
tho cold the whole damn day
had dragon boatin first in the mornin
den had amazin race in the rain the whole time after tt
and went back so stinky disgustin to have finale night
hahah i acted as the queen for apus hse skit
err i looked unglam?lol
mass dance twice with david after all tt skits cheerin stuff
went out to newton for supper with T10
the sji ppl were there too
and i had fun irritatin ronald
yep loved mon!

tues went out with like alot of ppl
i was jumpin all over town to go be extra lol
met tongtong at night before gg home

today first day of formal lessons
err met ms teh mdm indra and mdm lee
so not used to school nw
i was so bored gettin slpy the whole time in cls
den after tt went for dance auditions
my god i was a total embarrassment
sucha big failure pls
i juz got so nervous couldnt do it with everyone sittin at the back watchin
so yea tml mornin ill juz go to the board with miss bev chow to find her name
i have to go ponderponder wad other cca to join alrd.hahah.
denisee is leavin this sunday!!!my gosh so fast!
and soon ds and char will be leavin too.whyyyyyyy
ill miss all of them
hmm nw i cant rmb wad else there is to say so yea
ciao ppl and take care!cheers

tag replies:
perry: hahaha ac got more hot guys la
mandi: bleahh u mean dirtiness
ds: err not exactly new eyecandy la lol
vk: yeah i miss my darrllinngg veeks!lets meet up soon plspls with perry the bimbo!
dommy: haha im counted as ur neighbour too wad!bleahh
sheryl: diaoo why u video for wad i onli said one line and im so surprised u could recognise me coz i was wearin a mask!!!haha bev din even noe pls.

apus meeting

2006-01-08T15:44:00.000+08:00

fri cls stayed in school
played wet games in the mornin
funfunfun
hse stuff in the afternoon
aww poor david injured himself
i din get the chance to try sabo him for mass dance!
den dinner at cine with bev mabel jacinta nor and jo
met ah tong for like 5mins at potong pasir! xpxp

yest met up with apus skit ppl and the facils
err was supposed to meet at cityhall at 2
but coz of ian prettyy boy.we waited till like 3
prac for like bout onli an hr
lol most of the time everyone was like foolin arnd
esp ronald and claire playin jedi
but i guess the skit's ok coz jerome and ian says so!
i wasnt payin much attention oops
i onli have one line so yea
after tt foxy and some others left
11 of us went suntec nydc for dinner!
ronald tok so much but still insist hes shy wad crap.
went grandpa's hse after tt ate somemore
like wow i gotta watch my diet!
stupid nigel left not long after i reached
go find gal dun care bout cousin tsktsk.

oh did i mention tt i missed the odac orientation!
i woke up at 12pm! like wayyy past the time it started(7.58am)
rosemary foxy bryan ronald and jerome went!!!
ok alot of others went too
hai i really dunno wad the hell i wanna join la
and i dun wan orientation to end! i dun wanna study man.
and i tink i changed my mind bout leavin cj if i get better results
we'll see

anyways missed ij open hse
and yea wont be able to see my darlingss on mon too
miss them

orientation- ig21 & 1T10

2006-01-06T00:19:00.000+08:00

woo its been three days of orientation alrd in cjc!
i was in ig21 for first two days!
ig 21- iggy ruizhen joce amanda amelia pin joyce!
miss them xp esp amanda!

today got to meet my cls 1T10!
yes tts my cls for first three mnths! xpxp
i tink i love them alrd!
25 of us largest cls,19gals 13 ij my goodness!
we're nutty and we're fun!
me sheryl jasmine pearl denesh claire christie meryl sondra martina foxy rosemary huixin huimin yvonne jihyun lina petrina
ian prettyy boy glenn teddy bear jerome polar bear jason nicholas zhang hao
facils for my cls melissa ng,xiao an,lemo!

learnin the mass dance these days omg so confusin.im lost at some parts!
so far i love orientation i guess
i love denise poon!tt gal rocks man but shes migratin to aussie too juz like ds!
shes so damn loud.everyone she opens her mouth everyone stares at her.
david the giant! charlene tan! and my eyecandy!
arrghhh i wanna kill charlene and bev for embarrassin me!
oh gosh no face to tok to my eyecandy pls.
everyone is stealin my eyecandy sign pls!i shall patent it!haha
ok too much to blog bout so yea dun wanna cont anymore
im tired gonna go to bed cant waiit for later!
another fun day with my dear cls.
i wanna go dragon boatin!!!!

2006-01-03T23:50:00.000+08:00

if you dont step out of your shadow,
nobody can come into your future.

i need the comfort of ij
blue heaven-
i need the 9of u,terri,everybody!
i dun feel safe with the bunch of strangers

im hurt thru and thru

2005 reflections

2006-01-02T03:00:00.000+08:00

happy new year everyone
hope y'all will have a great 2006 ahead
hmm its the new year alrd
i really dun wanna go back to skool in a day's time
i dun wanna hit the books agn
and its time to adapt to new environment new frens new everything
somehow i dun feel old enough for jc

2005 has really been a rough journey for me
though some of it was gd
i'ld rather not have went thru the things i did
the hurt and ache i experienced
i made some mistakes i wished i nvr had made
i hate the way i handled things as well as with myself

if i could turn back time i'ld nvr have let him come into a part of my life
i want to say tt ive gotten over him but i havent
i nvr talked to anyone about it
i'ld rather not
but i still wanna thank wenfang, terri and bev and even alina
in one way or another,they've been the ones who helped me thru
y'all have made a difference in my life juz by bein there for me
esp wenfang,tho u were on the road to healin urself,i could talk to u when i needed to and u listened.u encouraged me thru and i can nvr say how thankful i am.

i hate the fact tt im leavin ij alrd after 10yrs
this last yr has brought to me a bunch of great frens
the 9 of u.u noe who u are.
(thanks for all the wonderful times we had,all our crazy outings and everything else)
sec4 has been a hell lot of fun,its been an unexpected yr i tink
ill always remember the joy,the tears,the lessons learnt,the friendships made in sec 4/4.
i really wish tt i could go back to the start of sec4 all over agn
i would nvr exchange it or given it up for anythin else
special thanks to all of u in 4/4

to my redcross batchmates
thanks for the 4yrs together
the rain and sun we went thru
with the tears and hardships
thank y'all for puttin up with my nonsense for 4yrs
even tho we had some not so great times,i really love u guys
u coloured my red cross life and taught me some things too

to bev and ash
i really appreciate the bond we have
its unbelievable how we're still together after these 7yrs for bev
and 5 for ash
y'all are absolutely the best i can ever have

and to terri,gela,lammyjie and everyone that's been part of my life in 2005
ill always remember y'all

i love all of you!

to dos in 2006:
keep a more low profile for a slower paced yr
handle situations better

goodwood park stay!

2005-12-30T23:32:00.000+08:00

hmm i was too lazy to update yest
but yea the past two days were FANTASTIC!
had the sleepover at goodwood park hotel with roseann perry nicky manda claire ds sonn
no complain calls this time round! xp
too bad jessie couldnt stay
lol this is alrd our 2nd hotel stay
our upgradin from chalet to hotel stays arent gd for our financial status man
but this stay was at the courtesy of roseann's mom so yeahhh

in the mornin we went to the new skool to have a tour arnd
saw all the teachers,took photos with them chatted for abit
we even took pics in the bio lab
the whole skool is like way too big man
so complicatin ok the place we can get lost in it
one moment ure in block A the next ure in block B
this is seriously crazy
no wonder they wanna try out the homeroom sysstem
most prob to save the teachers the trouble of walkin so far
but i tink tt means they'll end skool later?
their staffroom is like omg so damn huge and all
the whole place is juz comfy comfy
tried to get ourselves a clsroom in the neew skool
den off to goodwood we go
our room no was 148! yi si ba

the highlights of the stay!
we scared ds and claire in the room when they arrived
with claire gg 'they are here ok guys'
and 'im not scared'
haha with all her bravery and ds nearly in tears
it was quite hilarious
we had left the tap runnin in the bathroom lights off
sonn was in the closet like a ghost?
me on the bed with only my hair stickin outta the blanket
the rest behind the cupboard tappin the window
den we had the birthday surprise for claire and roseann
lol it was funny
cake pushin.each tinkin tt the party is for the other
presents for the both of them
claire had her first drum set lol
all was gd
exchanged our christmas gifts for each other!
thankks manda,im surprised u didnt get sth stupid lol
and im so glad u love tt guess handbag!
u better keep it in gd condition i love it too.hah
delicious and BIG nydc dinner.
went to get drinks with my darling perry
i broke her slippers!srryy
the rest got shot instant noodles and had a quick shoppin at far east
went back changed to unglam clothes sat arnd drinkin eatin watchin jackass
i slept durin the movie
went out to walk arnd town at 1++am
i was havin a headache
and the bacardi felt like it was gonna come out of my throat
but all tt was cured after the long walk.lol
wanted to walk to esplanade but we only managed to ps
walked as tho we owned the entire orchard
sat at ps macs for a while
some ah bengs tried to chat us up
like ewww
went back to the room and watched new york minute
finally slept at bout 5am
everyone woke up arnd 11+
except for claire who everyone noes nvr see the mornin sun
called for breakfast
checked out lugged our bags arnd far east and heeren lookin for claire's and manda's stuff
den home in a cab
yep all in all everythin was awesome!
except for tt lil fact tt i developed rashes
got home and i was red all over my body
looked as tho i got disease
not sure if it was from the alcohol or wad
but nvm its disappearin alrd

thank you manda roseann perry nicky jessie claire ds sonn for the wonderful time together!
i love all u guys
im sure gonna miss all of u
seriously cant believe im alrd gg to a JC!
like omg im so old alrd.i still wanna be a kid and play a fool all day long

tag replies:
yuanhao: hmm i wanna take the math lit econs chem combi, wad bout u?aiya ill still see u la durin assembly and all.dun be a loner!go and make new frens!!
qimmy: haha u saw me at night ar?lol should have come say hi! xp
wenfang: hellooo darrlingg!
manda: haha yep we had fun. xp
perry: haha glad u like the lollypop!its juz a small thing i bought for y'all.

2005-12-27T22:51:00.000+08:00

ok i dun really feel like bloggin so ya
juz very excited for tml's hotel thing with all my darlinggs!!

tag replies:
manda:haha ok sry this took so long but the song is goodbye my lover.haha.updated.lol
sheryl:if u have me in ur grp ure in luck ok bleahh
bev:im happy meh?haha
taigong:haha nvr.oops
cheng/min/manda/gela:thanks!merry christmas to y'all too!
zaza:hmm ure teresa rite?haha im too lazy to link u.
yuanhao:hey dun tink of the worst yet la!muz tink positive nw but tell me yea! xp

goodbye my lover

2005-12-23T13:37:00.000+08:00

aiyoo i dunno why but i juz cant stop myself from lazin arnd the damn hse
i havent been doin anythin since i came back to spore
the whole hse and my room is in a big bloody mess
which is so not me
usually ill be packin my room everyday
and nw im juz too lazy throwin everythin everywhere
the luggage is still in the livin room too
and all my secondary books and stuff are still in a mess in my cupboard
and christmas is comin but no christmas mood for me
so its juz gonna be another day
but den it also means tt my hols are seriously comin to an END
like oh my goodness me howwwwwwwwwww
i havent done everythin yet!!!
havent packed
havent go out with some ppl
havent enjoy enough
rahhh this sucks
how i wish i can have another one month hols!
hmm or mayb a lifetime.hahah

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow

back from california!

2005-12-22T23:47:00.000+08:00

heyy everyone im finally back
i know everyone missed me like nuts thank you lol
anyways the trip was great
helped me to put aside some stuff for tt few days
and made me feel like not comin back haha
in fact i hated the feelin of comin back to spore on the plane
its like time to face the world agn LOL
oh btw im happy i got into cj xp
i tink the best part of the trip was universal studios on the last day
went to hollywood boulevard to see walk of fame den to universal studios
universal was cool! and tt day they were filimin desperate housewives
too bad we din get to see them
and can i tell u tt i took my first ever rollar coaster ride in LA disneyland
like omg i nvr dared to go on all these shit
but i nvr went to theme parks often either so ya
got pulled by my cousins
and i nearly died durin the ride
felt as tho my heart was gonna jump out
and the blooddy thing was very high speed and had a 360turn arnd mickey mouse face
but den agn the after feeling was gd surprisingly
first time feel so shiok lol
and after tt all the other rides i took din feel scary anymore
oh but i still din take some rides where i can look down and omg im so high type

ok den im really lazy to type out the rest of the details of my trip
so yea see y'all

tag replies:
gela: prestigious my foot la!LOL we'll go out after u come back yea
yuanhao: muz tell me when u pass ur course! xp
roseann: yeah i always knew in my heart tt i hold a highly impt place in ur heart.i cant wait to see y'all next wk!
vk: hahahah sucker la u why muz disturb me huhhuh.bleahh.
sheryl: lol even if cant go out this hols we still got the first few wks of skool la!the not so busy period for u and us?and wahaha im sure ure waitin to see me everyday in skool xp
weiyun: lol im alrd back la dumbdumb.bleahh.why u wanna hang arnd?u wanna be monkey ar weiyun.hahahah

USA here i come

2005-12-11T22:28:00.000+08:00

heyy everyone!
lol im leavin for san fransico tml!
gotta reach the airport by 7am
2hrs before take off
total madness.
better miss me ok everyone!
and yea ill try to get presents for some of u
lol sry to everyone else.budget!
so yea ill be back on the 22nd!
so this blog will be stagnant until after christmas xp

oh my sis bought this taiwanese drama serial back
and ive been hooked!
lol why is tt the gal leads are always so damn ugly and short in the taiwanese dramas?
and sometimes all the other characters are ugly too.haha and their actin erm not tt fantastic
BUT i like this show!
its tt same kinda love here love there plot but yea
omg the guy is HOT
ill find out his eng name soon lol
he's so hot looks abit of mixed breed
nose highhigh and thick eyebrows!lol

tag replies:
perry: haha i finally uploaded some of my pics alrd!but i havent sort them out and linked them
so yea ill do it when i get back. xp
manda:wahaha have fun and tink of me everyday
vk: i wan my pink mirror! xp
knee:bleahh ill lose weight dun worry.
charlene:huh i thot u're in aussie nw bimbo?!how to go out soon when im leavin.haha after 24th la when gela comes back
yuanhao: x)) uve got leonard and joanne!gd luck with ur camp ok.lol add me on frenster!

holland v with perry all

2005-12-07T23:43:00.000+08:00

helloo all manda says i should update more so here i am.lol
anyways bev ash and i.we've juz went to check out our 5old neopets accs
and we have returned to playin it.LOL
i noe.u cant believe it.neither can i.

hmm leon's comin back from kl tml and mr underwear's leavin for kl tml lol
anyways i went back for trg today
sorta miss trgs.it was gd i guess today
met perry manda nicky claire ds sonn at holland v for lunch and tea
walked arnd and shop a lil
den went to da paolo.err im nt sure how to spell it
but yea i tink the place is quite cool.
lol theres this black squid ink thingthing quitee er gross?
the things there are ex man.the organics place too
we had crystal jade for lunch and swensens for tea
haha it was gd.meetin up with them and all

i swear i ate a truckload today ok
i wanna kill myself for eatin so damn much
had ramen xiaolongbao and ice cream with them
and juz nw went for buffet dinner at some hotel with my family
oh goodness.why did i succumb to the evils of food!arrghhh
anyways im juz too lazy to go on typin anymore so yea
cont taggin.lol

tag replies:
vk:thankks vkk.i absolutely juz love you to bits darlingg!! xp.
perry:sorrryy.everytime i wanna do it my hands doesnt listen.hahaha.too bad but i tink i had better do it before i go off
or else my dad is gonna delete everythin so dead.

ah cong kor's wedding!

2005-12-04T23:52:00.000+08:00

yest was sucha wonderful wonderful day!
it was my ah cong kor's wedding with pei xia jie
wahaha next may would be ah heng kor's wedding with xiuping jie
ok for those wonderin since when i had 2 kors
they're my nanny's sons
lol they looked after me from 1 till i was 6
so yea juz like my family!
sometimes i even wonder mayb i would be better off with them
hai juz felt very much part of them yest

anyways for those of u who noe me
weddings are my absolute favs!
lol weddings are sentimental & romantic affairs tt makes ppl wanna believe in true and everlastin love
so yea went to kor's place at 7am!
headed for peixia jie's hse where we were kept waitin for an hr
her sisters den gave him a hard time to get into the hse and to the bride's rm
durin which my kor gave a darn stupid excuse tt muz faster he need to pang sai
so retarded pls

went to esplanade to take pics!
hmm gd day to get married or sth
there was another couple takin pics too and another couple holdin weddin dinner at the same hotel
went to kor's new hse
heh surprisingly he had the strength to carry peixia jie into the room
den had all the tea ceremonies and stuff at kor's place den peixia jie's place
hehheh due to the customs stuff i recieved 36bucks of angbaos!cool eh

i followed aunty and jingyi jie to holiday inn atrium at bout 3+
woo yest finally ryan decides to tok to me!
ryan and issac both so damn shy character so much like jingyi jie
slacked in the room for abit
changed and jingyi jie helped me make up
den we took pics!
went down to the ballroom arnd 6.30
waited for a damn long time before all the guests finally arrived
i tink it was bout 8?
there was a cool bkmark given to everyone with kor and peixia's jie face on it
and the table gift was a wedding couple's keychain
i sat with ah heng kor and all
lol the table next to the groom's table!first time
while my whole family sat beside the door.awww
den yadayada food was great

ooh and i tink ah cong&peixia's love story is quite sweet
haha they knew each other for 19yrs!
since peixia transferred into ah cong kor's cls in 1986
same skool stayed at the same area juz diff blocks same storey!
and they onli started datin 3yrs back
lol since childhood how sweet can tt get

ended at bout 11.30pm
peixia jie was alrd tipsy by tt time
she drank quite alot i tink
lol she was holdin on tightly to me incase she fell
she was like muz mind her image!
her face and neck area was so damn red
and she cried halfway by bidin the guests gdbye
yea i told her and kor to zao shen gui zi!
so yea tt was my exhaustin but wonderful day for sat!
and today was like slack at home nth else

tag replies:
weijie:haha i learnt from u ok weijie
perry:yep i saw alrd bimbo!haha and i havent even uploaded mine.whoops.

ah tong's and zoo!

2005-11-30T23:40:00.000+08:00

hmm yest was a wasted day
met ah tong and terri for fish and co
den din find any movie to watch
so went to ah tong's hse at bout 2+
played pool and took retarded pics
den waited for jingyuan and david to come
stupid ah tong dun wanna find blazer shoes all tsktsk
anyways den we went to oriental hotel
hmm crazy terri see arron for less den 5mins den off we go
had dinner at esplanade with her!
and we went to romantic takin pics arnd the place
hahaha so weird

and today went to the ZOO with terri and aaron!
haha i was quite tired but den i perked up at the zoo
coz i saw terri's relatives, the sunbears and polar bears
amd leon's relatives! the black pig!
took quite afew pics there
and yadayadayada at the zoo
left at 5+ for aaron's hse
but left soon after coz i was too bright in the hse
took like 1hr to get home la
craziness he stay so damn far at wad chestnut drive
and tada here i am nw
happily online! xp

tag replies:
manda:yes ok i can see tt u scared off all the baddies.LOL

2005-11-28T23:47:00.000+08:00

hmm these past few days have been spent gg out out out and out
lol i could live life like this forever
juz slackin away everyday
but den tt means a financial prob
ill need to find myself a really rich husband den

anyways went to gardens with manda rose sand nicky perry and dino juz nw
had my oreos milkshake from happy daz!!
lol lots of fats accumulated tonight
hmm tml out with terri and my mr underwear!

hmm rose sand is off tml!
oh no the next time i see the gal will be when i come back!
tt's so sad! i'll see her most prob when we have our next hotel stayover like wow after christams!
ahhhh ill miss you rose sand!
rmb to tink bout the ten reasons why u love lalee ok
haha ok mayb u wun see this but i dun care.

and my darling veeks is also off to hongkong tml!
veeks u better get me sth ok or ill not let u off.bleahh
happy shoppin over there

to you:
hmm hope ure ok.dun fret over ur probs too much alright
lalee's always here to listen if u wan. xp

tag replies:
vk:yeah u rock too!btw ure leavin too huh take care gal!
manda:haha manda of coz ure smart stop denyin it la!
wf:bleahh my goodness u and yx ar.who say i went to see the both of u lol
but of coz i love you anyway!y'all ar faster fix a date la!
shimin:hey gal erm btw who's ur angel ar
yuanhao:haha thru links.i wanna go sa too!but i applied for cj for first three mnths
rose sand: they are absolutely valid reasons ok my dear!
perry:ok claire need to faster upload them man and i cant wait for our next hotel thing!

ij life is over

2005-11-23T00:04:00.000+08:00

last day of Os
hmm actually i alrd felt like it was over after am paper

ive got nth much to say for all the papers
juz tt im happy with wad i did
i feel like ive done my best for most of the subjects
BUT bio hai
i really studied harder den prelims
but guess wad i didnt really study heredity and it came out
guess i was really not thorough enough when studyin bio.
some parts of the chaps i juz skipped
for example the last page for the liver thing
and wah it came out too
i thot so small section nth to study
haiya its gonna pull my chem down to a 3 or a 4 agn like prelims
mans i swear im not takin bio in jc
i love chem!

hmm while everyone's frettin for prom
ive been sittin at home shakin leg
haha bought dress and heels
borrowin mom's gucci shawl and necklace and clutch
yest she did facial for me and plucked my eyebrows
today she did pedicure for me
tml shes gonna do manicure for me
like wow rite.hahah so i juz came home after the paper
didnt really feel much anyways
its juz so weird

cant wait for the trip to USA
get away from singapore after so long

ahh tml gotta go back to skool at 8.30 so damn early pls
lol slpin is my forte
im the slpin beauty!bleahh
hmm gonna go out with perry all tml
den to harry potter with my cousin and sisters(ewww)
so yea sry guys i cant stay for long

anyways it juz dawned on me how im gonna embark on a new life soon
in a new skool with new ppl
and not so new environment coz i doubt it'll be tt diff if i go cj
i dunno its gonna weird
not goin to ij after 10yrs
not goin to a place full of gals
screamin shoutin shriekin
changin in cls flashin everywhere.hahaha
the teachers
whom some like jo teo and mag low we call by names
juz the mere mention of their names will bring horror
everyone will be flustered and start to bring their invisible socks up
so many things bout ij ill miss
and the ppl
ppl like perry nicky manda all will be in diff skools coz why
they're juz too freakin smart

anyways its a long entry today havent blogged for a longlong time
if ure still readin this congrats to u lol

i love my two besties(ash&bev)
really miss our lil chats under the blanket
we'll always remain besties ok. xp

i love terri
for bein my shoppin partner
tuition partner
teachin me chem
bein a not so wonderful daughter

i love vk
for bein my clsrm partner for almost a full 2yrs
for bein so retarded and makin me laugh every now and then
sharin food with me in cls
gossipin bout certain ppl durin lessons
teachin me amaths
and alot of things
but most of all bein the most wonderful fren

i love perry
for bein my bimbotic partner
for bein smart and teachin me stuff
for lettin me copy her notes whenever im too lazy to copy durin lessons
for remindin me tt i need to lose weight all the time
pls try not to be too bitchy bleahh

i love rose sand
for lettin me get a lift to lil india
for bein the "rational" one
for gossipin bout ds tgt infront of ds

i love nicky
for bein the 'motherly' one

i love manda
for bein ever so vulgar LOL
and lettin me have a gd laugh hearin ur complains

i love alicia
for lettin me be crazy at her esp on fri eh

i love ds
not for the whinin
but for the laughter she brings coz of her antics

i love jessie
for bein a lil dino
for bein short so i can gloat

i love claire
for muggin it out tgt for bio/chem
for givin ds weird looks tgt bout sean

i love gi
for havin been sucha gd fren for the past 6yrs
for lettin me insult her this yr

i love all the NCOs 04/05`
for goin thru the bad and gd times tgt
for gg thru fdcoms talentimes and all the competitions
and also the ex ma'ams scoldings
lammyjie mx al pam for bein there for me when i need them

i love mel the lil one
for bein there this yr to let me disturb
its fate tt i knew u!
lol from the time u were p3 till this yr coz of ur leon korkor

im gonna take a shitload of pics on thurs
4/4 has really been quite a cls
the teachers too
thanks for all the memories

anyways sry to all for not replyin tags for so long
tag replies:
nic: hey!i havent been to ur hse !!!
qimmy:hey of coz i rmb u. xp sdc gal tho im not sure how we got accquainted lol
ahlee:yeah ok ill get u sth too darl!and our outtin outtin whenwhenwhen!
em:heh all sad lyrics.haha
bev:lol actually most of the time it was YOU diggin thru the stack of papers rmb auntie chow?
i stand there and watched u.wahahah
gela:hi yi hua.we should have a rc chalet mans.havent had one since maam bridgette's batch
joanne:i miss you too gal!i miss all you fairfield ppl.yea go out go out.hai wf's with an injured leg nw!
aaron:huh look at terri for wad

how can i not love you

2005-11-06T13:03:00.000+08:00

Cannot touch, cannot hold
Cannot be together
Cannot love, cannot kiss
Cannot have each other
Must be strong
And we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here In my arms
How does one waltz away from all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

Cannot dream
Cannot share sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel
Must pretend it's over
Must be brave
And we must go on
Must not say what we've known all along

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here In my arms
How does one waltz away from all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

Must be brave
And we must be strong
Cannot say what we've known all along

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here In my arms
How does one waltz away from all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

studystudystudy

bad yr?

2005-10-16T23:06:00.000+08:00

hmm all the lil things arnd affect my mood and emotions
but im glad for all my frens and besties!
esp bev and terri whom i call everytime
been feeling sentimental since skool ended i tink
haha.like woo ij life is over.
i tink the yr in a way is gd and bad
but i guess mostly bad for me
with everythin tt happened
esp with him
and my mom?

wed last day of skool
thurs studied with vk and perry at perry's hse
fri studied with them agn at vk's!
her mom made apple pie for us!yumyum
lol first time i ate apple pie actually
coz i nvr liked the smell of cinnamon
i wan more of auntie's pie!

yest went to vj and sa's open hse
with perry,dino and rose sand
lol two tallies with two smallies!
we din stay long at vj
it was juz too demoralisin
sa was gd with the dance and all
but i tink the ppl there are like unfriendly compared to vj's
at vj we got all smiles and greetings
at sa it seems as tho no one cares tt ure standin there
and erm the teacher we consulted
he din seem to noe his skool and the system well enuff?

oh i went to vj at 10+
woke weijie up early in the mornin and made him accompany me to vj
(tho he was reluctant the day before,i noe in his heart he was goin to accompany me!LOL)
lol nvr go before and me bein the worrywart
juz asked him to go with me so i wun get off the wrong place!
so thank you mr loh!! x))
ps:stop bein so mean to anna ok.

hmm the four of us went to ikea for lunch before gg sa
ate swedish meatballs!
lol me and perry bein the deprived kids tastin tt for the first time
so filling pls.i felt bloated lookin at it
after sa,four of us went town for dress huntin!
it was fun tryin on all the dresses!
perry bein the skinny freak cant fit everythin
all like curtains hangin on her.lol
roseann and jessie couldnt find any tt could fit them too
but yep i love the both of them!
coz they gave up and accompanied me in the end
sat there and watched me try
i felt so bad.
thankss guys!
so yea i bought my dress alrd!
im happy.gonna try to make myself look diff and not so plain tho
coz most prob there'll be someone with the same dress
(im crossin my fingers!)

~~how is tt someone can completely forget a connection once shared~~
~~something tt ignited a fire within~~
sometimes i really wish i nvr knew you

tag replies:
alina darling!:lol no more skool rite alina?anyways study hard and tink of me!
mayb ill see u next wk at ac's open hse?
ash:lol den u should tag more ash! x))decided where ure goin?
vk:lets study together agn soon!lol den we can sit infront of the tv at 5-6pm!
knee:thanks taigong xp
wf:yea i missed u too fangfang!lol we will meet up soon rite in bout 2mnths!
dun forget to save me all the juicy gossip!lol
melmel:hey smallie!yea i dun rmb u bein there when u were in p3 too!fate brought us together agn!thanks for ur luck smart gal. x)) i love you too!hah muz love me more den ur leon kor ok.
mabel:heyy daughter.wah first time come here.lol
mr underwear:yeah ah tong!i wanna go ur hse rich kid!

my loves!

2005-10-10T23:31:00.000+08:00

hmm germaine is like my elder sister!
haha my dear cousin is always there for me
she understands me the best i tink
even more den any of my frens all these yrs
since shes been listenin to my woes for as long as i can rmb
since we were lil kids!

yep i juz vented all my pent up frustrations for the past 5mnths to her
told her everythin i felt bout HIM
everythin tt happened
ohwells she always juz supports me in everythin
hah even when i noe im bein quite stupid
she says im juz a normal girl

i shall tink bout wad she said and decide wad to do
and when to do them
oh and i asked her bout jc and all
talked bout subjects combi
uni stuff
haha quite far i noe.but yea
shes my 'stepmommy'!
there to ans my qns and to listen to me

not onli talking bout HIM
but also talkin bout the bitch sister of mine
and yea everythin else in the family

thankks germaine the germ! x))
i love you!

and i have to thank mr underwear too!
he rawks!
besides germs talkin to me
he also came to try makin me feel better
lol i found someone else to listen to me
and hes really a nice guy
so i shall love mr underwear too!lol

ok last but not least
thank you terri and aaron. x))

ill never get over you getting over me

2005-10-09T14:01:00.000+08:00

I hear you're taking the town again
Having a good time
With all your good time friends
I don't think that you think of me
You're on your own now and I'm alone and free
I know that I should get on with my life
But a life lived without you could never be right

As long as the stars shine down from the heavens
Long as the rivers run to the sea
I'll never get over you getting over me

I try to smile so the hurt wont show
Tell everybody I was glad to see you go
But the tears just won't go away
Loneliness found me, looks like its here to stay
I know that I ought to find someone new
But all I find is myself always thinking of you

As long as the stars shine down from the heavens
Long as the rivers run to the sea
I'll never get over you getting over me

Oh, no matter what I do
Each nights a lifetime to live through
I cant go on like this, I need your touch
You're the only one I'll ever love

And as long as the stars shine down from the heavens
Long as the rivers run to the sea
I'll never get over you getting over me

I'll never get over you getting over me

O level!

2005-10-05T22:15:00.000+08:00

okk im back
hmm got freakin 19pts
how great.
oh wells at least i improved
i shall work towards Os!
and of coz my darrlinng dawn sao is so sweet
she msged me today to ask me if i need any help
lol since shes free after her promos
awww.i love dawn sao to bits!
ok nw i muz work for am,bio,lit and eng!
err ss/geog hmmm.

but i tink i shall start lookin for a new place to study in
my hse is too much of a distraction
afterall ive been so guai
for the past 3mnths
dutifully comin home straight after skool
but too long in the hse has caused me to slacken in my self control
so yea
hmm mayb the country club?

oh another perfect reason to find a new place
is coz for the past wk or so ive been quarellin with my mom everyday
she has to find fault with everything single trivial thing i do
which juz totally pisses the hell out of me
rahhh see wad the stayin home has done to me

anyways came home today and my mom did some ear candlin thing for me
i was like huh,ive nvr heard of it before
so yeah its to remove all the dirt from ur ears
quite cool.the thing is made up of beewax and i have no idea how it works
its quite gross to look at all the shit tt came out of my ear
haha i read the history behind
and it apparently can help sinus
coz it clears the passageway of sth i guess
go try it..hahah

i swear my sister is really damn weird
her PSLE started this wk i tink or mayb last
but she has been watchin tv everyday,slpin in the afternoon and all
my mom scolds her she juz cont watchin tv
ok not tt im any better
but the pt is she suddenly broke down juz nw
shes so weird
after slackin and all
den she goes downstairs to ask my dad how to do some nanyang question
no idea wad subject,she started to cry
and told my dad shes damn scared.
like oookkay.

haha i noe my posts are always very long so yea if ure still readin
i salute u..LOL
but its coz i hardly blog so yea bear with me
oh ya got back CCA records
i got an A2
and im not really sure if tt is minus 2bonus pts
but whatever it is
i still tink an A1 would look nicer
so yea i shall juz go make the amendments
because they din count my staff sergent rank man!

ok to end this off
juz some shoutouts to my darlings!

to bev and terri: thank you darlings for juz talkin to me when im depressed!and yea bev for the long chat we had yest after so long!i love you!u brighten up my days!
to veeks:haha sittin with u agn made me happy
coz ure so retarded.u make me smile veeks!so cont to be retarded ok!wahah
to ash:ok not sure if u'll see this but my dear dear ash!no matter wad jc u go to..u'll still have me and bev ok!we'll not forget u i promise.afterall we've managed to stay together for this 4yrs rite!so yea juz go to a bloody jc for goodness sakes.u have 6pts!!!
and of coz to dawn sao: x)) thanks for rememberin me!i missed u for the past 2yrs!lol the maam-cadet period and nw u always have time for terrence not me!lol jkjk.meet up soon ok.ill look for u if i need help smart ass!
and to everyone else who's been there for me!

hardcore bimbo shopping!

2005-09-25T00:06:00.000+08:00

haha its late into the night nw!
anyways prelims been over for 3days nw
skool for the past 2days have juz been erm talks?
hai nw will be spent worryin for the results

anyways went hardcore shopping with perry ds nicky and rose sand yest!
haha retail therapy totally
but den i din bring enough money
only bought a pair of earrings from topshop
and a pair of pink shorts from fox
lol rose sand and ds helped pay for the shorts first. thanks!
saw so many things i wanna buy!oh gosh i tink im gonna go buy them another day
the five of us shopped for about 3hrs
went to taka wisma and far east only
but the amt of things bought was like woahh madness
hmm i tink the amt 5of us spent in tt short 3hrs could easily sum up to 400bucks or so.
we onli visited so few shops and almost every shop we went into
we came out with sth
money like free juz keep buyin non stop lol .
bimbo shopping!
so yeah this explains the increase of my wishlist
coz i din manage to get many things
dumb eh.go shoppin with no money
anyways had a great day with the 4 of them!i love y'all!
we went to gelare to sit and rest at bout 5++
and i was alrd nearly dyin from the walkin
so yep tt was my day.

you're the reason i believe in love!

2005-09-24T22:35:00.000+08:00

(I do swear that I'll always be there. I'd give anything and everything
and I will always care. Through weakness and strength, happiness and
sorrow, for better or worse, I will love you with every beat of my
heart.)

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you
is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

cant cry hard enough

2005-09-10T01:53:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna live my life
Like every day's the last
Without a simple good-bye
It all goes by so fast

And now that you're gone
I can't cry hard enough
No I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now

I'm gonna open my eyes
And see for the first time
I've let go of you like
A child letting go of his kite

There it goes up in the sky
There it goes beyond the clouds
For no reason why
I can't cry hard enough
No I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now

I'm gonna look back in vain
And see you standing there
When all that remains
Is just an empty chair

And now that you're gone
I can't cry hard enough
No I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now

There it goes, up in the sky
There it goes, beyond the clouds
For no reason why
I can't cry hard enough
No I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now

live twice

2005-09-08T23:10:00.000+08:00

Don't leave now
Not yet
There are words I
Regret
And I'm sorry
Somehow
I only
Wanted to make you proud

If I could only let you know
I'd give up everything I own
For just one more day with you
There's nothing I wouldn't do
I could not let it pass me by
If I make every sacrifice
To bring me back your love
If only we could live twice
If only we could live twice

When you told me
I froze
It still echoes
In my soul
Please forgive me
If I didn't say
I love you
Every single day

If I could only let you know
I'd give up everything I own
For just one more day with you
There's nothing I wouldn't do
I could not let it pass me by
If I make every sacrifice
To bring me back your love
If only we could live twice
If only we could live twice

Nobody told me we'd only get one chance
I didn't know that our tide would turn so fast
Why we have to say goodbye I don't understand

If I could only let you know
I'd give up everything I own
For just one more day with you
There's nothing I wouldn't do
I could not let it pass me by
If I make every sacrifice
To bring me back your love
If only we could live twice

I could not let it pass me by
Nothing I give to sacrifice
To bring me back your love
If only we could live twice
If only we could live twice
We'll meet in another life
If only we could live twice

that's why you go away

2005-09-05T12:54:00.000+08:00

Baby won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
There is something left in my head

Yes i know

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There ain't so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore

That's why you go away I know

25 minutes too late

2005-09-04T13:53:00.000+08:00

After some time I've finally made up my mind
She is the girl and I really want to make her mine
I'm searching everywhere to find her again
To tell her I love her
And I'm sorry 'bout the things I've done

I find her standing in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn't search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But she's crying while she's saying this

Boy I missed your kisses all the time but this is
Twenty five minutes too late
Though you travelled so far boy I'm sorry you are
Twenty five minutes too late

Against the wind I'm going home again
Wishing be back to the time when we were more than
friends

But still I see her in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn't search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But she's cried while she's saying this

Out in the streets
Places where hungry hearts have nothing to eat
Inside my head
Still I can hear the words she said

I can still hear what she said

love me for a reason

2005-09-01T13:22:00.000+08:00

Girl when you hold me
How you control me
You bend and you fold me
Any way you please

It must be easy for you
The lovely things that you do
But just a pastime for you
I could never be

And I never know, girl
If I should stay or go
Cos the games that you play
Keep driving me away...
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love

Kisses and caresses
Are only minor tests, babe
Of love leads to stresses
Between a woman and a man
So if love everlasting
Isn't what you're asking
I'll have to pass, girl
I'm proud to take a stand

I can't continue guessing
Because it's only messing
With my pride, and my mind
So write down this time to time

Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love

Just a little affection
It takes more than a physical attraction
My initial reaction is
Honey give me a love
Not a facsimile of

Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love

triqnaqi

2005-08-31T18:16:00.000+08:00

ok teachers day celebrations today
like onli 1/10 of the whole sec4 population went man
i didnt wanna go too
but i was bein such a oh so wonderful gd fren
got persuaded by bev to go
coz triqnaqi was performin
stupid jo come so late i went for assembly.urgh
lol so yea went to skool
mass den watched triqnaqi perform
hmm mitch's cousin is so cute!!
and the three smallies too
haha the cuteness today
plus aaron aziz too
took pic with him but i was quite extra bein the non dancer in the grp
oh man.
hmm sat there while they filmed triqnaqi agn
lol anna belle francis is abit psycho.she's like some ball cant stop bouncin arnd
and poor keisha kept gettin teased by sheikh haikel
den sheryl baey came!
HAPPY BDAY MISS HORSE! ILU!!!
yep gave her mrs fields
lol tt was desperate measure.we couldnt tink of wad to get
see so noble.go to skool coz of bev and sheryl
anyways after the filmin thing
went to st nics with jo nor and bev
lol jo was so excited to go back to her pskool
she was so happy there
she was like reminiscin bout the past
gg on and on
so blissful eatin her fishball noodles and drinkin her milk tea
stayed there till 2pm
i slept and nor did her search while bev jo and ash toured the skool
hmm den went to banquet in tpc to makan
and i came home first!
ok im off nw..one more day off from skool
lol ill go for chem tuition. (eyecandy!!)

ill be there for you

2005-08-29T22:34:00.000+08:00

I guess this time you're really leaving,
I heard your suitcase say goodbye.
And as my broken heart lies bleeding,
they say true love is suicide.
You say you've cried a thousand rivers,
and now you're swimming for the shore.
You left me drowning in my tears,
and you won't save me anymore.
Now I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance, girl.

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you.
When you breathe I want to be the air for you.
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you,
Words can't say what love can do.
I'll be there for you

I know you know we've had some good times,
Now they have their own hiding place.
I can promise you tomorrow,
But I can't buy back yesterday.
And baby you know my hands are dirty,
But I wanted to be your Valentine,
I'll be the water when you get thirsty, baby
When you get drunk, I'll be the wine

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you.
When you breathe I want to be the air for you.
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you,
Words can't say what love can do.
I'll be there for you

And I wasn't there when you were happy,
I wasn't there when you were down.
I didn't mean to miss your birthday, baby
I wish I'd seen you blow those candles out

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you.
When you breathe I want to be the air for you.
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you,
Words can't say what love can do.
I'll be there for...

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you.
When you breathe I want to be the air for you.
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you,
Words can't say what love can do.
I'll be there for you

sometimes love just aint enough

2005-08-24T00:02:00.000+08:00

now, i don't want to lose you,
but i don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side.
and i don't want to hate you,
i don't want to take you,
but i don't want to be the one to cry.
and that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
but like a fool i keep losing my place
and i keep seeing you walk through that door.

but there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
there's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

now, i could never change you, i don't want to blame you.
baby, you don't have to take the fall.
yes, i may have hurt you, but i did not desert you.
maybe i just want to have it all.

it makes a sound like thunder, it makes me feel like rain.
and like a fool who will never see the truth,
i keep thinking something's gonna change.

and there's no way home,
when it's late at night and you're all alone.
are there things that you wanted to say?
and do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?
and there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
there's a reason why people don't stay who they are.

baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.
baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough.